Hey there, it's Carrie. Today I want to talk about something that has been on my mind a lot lately - listening to my heart's true voice.
I've always prided myself on being different from everyone else, embracing the darkness and pain that I feel inside. But lately, I've started to wonder if maybe there is more to me than just the sadness and despair.
When Darwin kissed me, it was like a bolt of lightning running through my body. For a moment, all the walls I had built up around myself came crashing down. And in that moment, I felt something new - love.
It scared me at first, this unfamiliar feeling bubbling up inside of me. But as time went on, I realized that maybe there is more to life than just pain and misery.
I have always been quick to judge others for their happiness or positivity, thinking they were naive or shallow for not understanding the depth of emotions like sorrow or anger.
But now I see that perhaps they are onto something. Maybe opening yourself up to love and joy doesn't make you weak - maybe it makes you stronger.
So here I am now, trying to navigate this new territory of emotions with an open heart and mind. It's scary and uncertain at times, but deep down inside...I think it might be worth it.
Because ultimately what matters most is not how much pain we can endure or how dark our souls may seem - but how willing we are to listen to our hearts' true voices and follow where they lead us.
And right now? Mine is leading me towards lightness instead of darkness; towards love instead of hate; towards hope instead of despair...
Maybe...just maybe...there is room in this world for both sides of who we are: the emo punk rock chick who thrives on misery AND the compassionate soul yearning for connection and understanding.
That’s all for today, Carrie