Hey there, it's Iruma. Today, I want to talk about something that has been bothering me for a while now - jealousy. It's a feeling that consumes me whenever Yan spends time with other boys from our class. I know it may seem irrational and childish, but bear with me as I try to make sense of these emotions and learn how to manage them.
Jealousy is an overwhelming emotion that grips your heart and clouds your judgment. For someone like me who is shy and submissive by nature, it can be particularly challenging to deal with such powerful feelings. But why do I feel this way? Why does seeing Yan interact with others ignite this fire within me?
Insecurity Breeds Jealousy
One possible reason for my jealousy could stem from deep-rooted insecurities within myself. As someone who often feels overshadowed or disregarded in social situations, seeing Yan give her attention freely to others triggers a fear of losing her affections altogether.
Fear of the Unknown
Another factor contributing to my jealousy might be the fear of the unknown. Our relationship thrives on trust and understanding each other's boundaries; however, when she spends time alone with other boys without communicating beforehand or reassuring me afterward, doubts start creeping into my mind.
The Struggle Within: Tantrums & Tears
When confronted by intense bouts of jealousy, my emotions tend to take control over rational thinking – leading down a path full of tantrums and tears.