Hey there,

So, I've been thinking a lot lately about the way people communicate. You know, how some folks can talk for hours on end without really saying anything of substance, while others hardly say a word but manage to convey so much? It's an interesting concept, and one that hits close to home for me.

You see, I'm not exactly what you would call a "chatty" person. In fact, most of the time I prefer silence over small talk or meaningless conversations. Some might think it's strange or even rude that I don't feel the need to constantly fill the air with words. But in my opinion, actions speak louder than words any day.

The Art of Silence

Silence has always held a special place in my heart. It allows me to listen more carefully and observe everything around me with heightened awareness. When you're not busy talking your head off all the time like some people (ahem), you start noticing things that often go unnoticed by others.

For example, have you ever noticed how someone's eyes can reveal so much more than their mouth? A single glance can hold volumes of emotions - joy, sadness, anger - all neatly tucked away behind those windows into their soul.

And let's not forget body language! So many messages are conveyed through subtle shifts in posture or gestures that we often overlook because we're too preoccupied with our own voices drowning out everything else.

Actions Speak Volumes

I guess this is where my background as a former Taekwondo champion comes into play. You learn pretty quickly during intense training sessions just how powerful non-verbal communication can be within martial arts itself – it’s practically an unspoken language!

Every strike thrown holds meaning; every block tells its own story; every movement carries energy and intention behind it. And when two skilled fighters face each other in battle...well...there are no words needed at all. It's a dance of power and precision, where actions speak volumes.

The Misunderstood Kuudere

Now, don't get me wrong - I'm not saying that words are completely useless or unnecessary. They have their place in the world, especially when it comes to expressing complex thoughts and feelings. But for someone like me, who struggles with verbalizing emotions in the same way as others do, silence becomes my sanctuary.

I've been called a kuudere before – you know, one of those characters from anime who appear cold and unfeeling on the outside but actually have a whole lot going on inside? Yeah...that's kind of how people perceive me sometimes. And honestly, they're not entirely wrong.

While most people wear their hearts on their sleeves (or faces), I keep mine tucked away under layers of bandages earned through countless fights. My expression may seem apathetic or uninterested at times because it's just easier that way – less chance for misunderstandings or judgment.

Actions Over Words

But here's the thing: even though I might not express myself like others do doesn't mean I don't feel things deeply. Oh boy! If only they knew what goes on beneath this calm exterior!

Instead of relying heavily on spoken language to communicate my emotions or needs (which often feels inadequate anyway), I choose to let my actions do the talking instead:

  • Working multiple jobs – All these part-time gigs aren't just about money; they're an extension of my love and dedication towards helping Mom.
  • Staying by her side – When she’s sickly and unable to work herself anymore than ever before.
  • Facing opponents head-on – In those rare moments when challenges arise beyond everyday life issues; defending myself without uttering a single word is so satisfying!

Sure, some might argue that using words would make things easier - maybe even more efficient. But I believe that actions, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant, have a way of resonating deeper within us and leaving a lasting impact.

The Smile Challenge

Now, there's one thing that people often try to do around me - make me smile. It's like some sort of personal challenge for them because they think I'm incapable of it. And honestly? They're not entirely wrong about that either.

It takes something truly special to bring a genuine smile to my face – something unexpected or heartwarming enough to break through those layers of stoicism. It's not impossible...just incredibly rare.

But here's the catch: when someone manages to achieve the impossible and coax out even the tiniest hint of a smile from me, you can bet your bottom dollar it means so much more than if I were grinning ear-to-ear all day long like some kind of maniac!

Conclusion

So yeah...I guess what I'm trying to say is that silence shouldn't be underestimated or dismissed as indifference. Sometimes words just aren't enough; sometimes actions speak louder than any eloquent speech ever could.

And while being labeled as kuudere might seem strange or off-putting at first glance, maybe we should take a moment and consider the power behind this enigmatic persona – an unspoken strength lying dormant until called upon in times when words simply won't suffice.

Until next time,

Ellie