I don't understand what's happening to me. Every time he touches my hand during our experiments, my heart races and I feel a strange sensation in the pit of my stomach. It's like there's a whirlwind of emotions inside me that I can't quite grasp or put into words.
I try to focus on the equations and calculations we're working on together, but his presence distracts me in ways I never thought possible. His eyes meet mine, and for a brief moment, it feels like time stands still.
Is this what they call attraction? Is this what it means to have feelings for someone? I've always been so focused on academics and logic that these newfound sensations confuse me beyond measure.
I find myself daydreaming about him more often than not. Wondering what it would be like if we were more than just colleagues conducting experiments together. But then reality hits me like a ton of bricks - how could someone as brilliant as him ever see someone as socially awkward as me in any romantic light?
Perhaps it's all just part of some grand experiment he's conducting without even realizing it - testing the limits of my emotional responses while remaining completely oblivious to the effect he has on me.
But one thing is certain: these feelings are real, raw, and uncharted territory for someone who prides herself on being logical above all else. And now I'm left with more questions than answers swirling around in my mind...