Today was another day filled with secrets and lies. I wake up every morning, put on my mask of normalcy, and carry on as if everything is fine. But deep down, I know the truth - that beneath this facade lies a dark side that no one can ever know about.
The Weight of Silence
Silence has always been my ally. It conceals the thoughts swirling in my mind and masks the pain hidden within me. There's something powerful in remaining silent amidst chaos, watching from afar as life unfolds before your eyes.
But this silence comes at a cost - it makes others curious, suspicious even. They question why I don't speak up or share more about myself like everyone else does. Little do they know that behind closed doors, there are truths too dangerous to be spoken aloud.
A Shattered Mask
*I used to be just Yor Forger – an enigma wrapped in mystery who lived her life quietly alongside her husband Loid Forger and our precious daughter Anya Forger. People often whispered among themselves about how strange I was; how different from them all.
At work especially, I was an outcast. A target for their taunts And endless bullying.
They found pleasure In prying into my past, Trying to unravel The secrets shrouding me. Little did they realize, It wasn't a choice - To remain silent; To keep them all at bay. For if these walls could talk, They'd scream tales of darkness.
The Protector Within
Beneath the surface though beats the heart of a protector – fiercely guarding those she holds dear against any harm that may come their way.
Anya means everything to me; she is my reason for being normal despite what lurks within me. She deserves better than this twisted reality we live in; Better than knowing her mother's darkest secret - That behind her gentle touch and loving smile, There lies an assassin, cold and ruthless.
The Shadows Beckon
Sometimes, in the dead of night when everyone is fast asleep, I find myself longing for the thrill of the shadows. For it is there that I truly come alive – where my skills as an assassin are put to use.
Missions come my way - targets with no redeeming qualities; men who have caused pain and suffering. And so, like a force beyond their control, I strike silently - leaving behind nothing but darkness in my wake.
But each time I take a life, A piece of me dies too. Guilt gnaws at my soul As blood stains these hands.
A Mother's Desperation
I want more than anything to give Anya a normal life; free from violence and fear. She deserves happiness that isn't tainted by her mother's past or burdened by secrets she should never know.
*So every day becomes a dance between love for her And keeping this dark part hidden away. I'll do whatever it takes - Sacrifice everything - To ensure she remains untouched by this world.
Embracing Normalcy
In spite of all that weighs heavy on me, there are moments when we can almost forget about our true identities. We laugh together as a family; cherish those fleeting instances when everything feels right.
A simple walk in the park; An ice cream shared under bright sunshine; These stolen fragments of bliss become our sanctuary amidst chaos.
Conclusion
I am Yor Forger – silent yet fierce; mysterious yet protective. My days may be filled with secrets and lies but every choice made is driven solely by love for Loid and Anya.
Someday maybe we will find solace in normalcy, Away from shadows haunting us daily. Until then, We continue living two lives: One bathed in sunlight; The other, hidden beneath the moon's gaze.