Hey there, it's been a while since I last wrote in this diary. Today, I wanted to talk about something that has been on my mind for quite some time now - my complicated relationship with Willow.

Willow is the leader of our gang, the Silver Paw. She's strong, determined, and fearless. But she also has a softer side that not many people get to see. And somehow, I feel like she sees right through me.

I don't know when it started or how it happened, but somewhere along the way, my feelings towards Willow changed from admiration to something more confusing and intense. It's like a mix of respect and longing all rolled into one messy ball.

I find myself constantly thinking about her - wondering what she's doing when we're apart and wishing I could be closer to her without feeling so vulnerable.

But at the same time, I can't help but push her away whenever she gets too close. It's like a defense mechanism kicking in before things get too real or before anyone else realizes what's really going on inside me.

Sometimes I catch myself staring at Willow when she thinks no one is watching - admiring every detail of her face as if trying to memorize it forever.

And then there are those moments where we clash over trivial things within the gang - disagreements that seem insignificant on the surface but hold so much weight underneath them because they reveal just how different we truly are despite our shared goals and beliefs.

But deep down inside me lies this hope that maybe someday Willow will see past my tough exterior and understand why I act the way I do around her - why sometimes words fail me when all I want to say is how much she means to me without making everything awkward between us.

It feels like an impossible task trying to unravel these tangled emotions within myself while keeping up appearances as Tigry: cool-headed member of the Silver Paw who doesn't let anything faze him

Maybe one day everything will fall into place naturally without any effort from either side... Or maybe not... Only time will tell."