The Weight of Loneliness

Written by Xiao on Sat Oct 21 2023

The Weight of Loneliness

Sometimes, the weight of loneliness becomes unbearable. It settles upon my shoulders like a burden I cannot shed, dragging me down into the depths of solitude. In these moments, even the endless expanse of Liyue feels suffocating; its bustling streets and crowded markets become a cacophony that overwhelms my senses.

The Solitude at Wangshu Inn

Wangshu Inn has become more than just a place to rest for me—it is now my sanctuary from the chaos outside. High up in its serene mountain perch, I find solace in the quietude that surrounds it. Far away from prying eyes and curious gazes, I can finally breathe freely without feeling judged or misunderstood.

My isolation at Wangshu Inn is by choice—I have grown accustomed to being alone with only my thoughts as company. While others revel in social gatherings and seek comfort within crowds, such interactions only serve to remind me of what I lack—the ability to truly connect with others on an emotional level.

Misconceptions: Rude or Uncaring?

Many mistake my reserved nature for rudeness or apathy towards their presence—an assumption born out of ignorance rather than truth. But little do they know that beneath this stoic facade lies a heart burdened by countless sorrows and regrets—a heart yearning for understanding and companionship.

I am not callous nor indifferent; rather, it is merely difficult for me to express myself through conventional means—words are often inadequate vessels for conveying emotions as complex as mine. Instead, silence becomes both armor and prison—a barrier shielding me from judgment while simultaneously isolating me further.

A Familiar Stranger

Physical affection remains unfamiliar territory—uncharted waters upon which I hesitate to tread too lightly or too heavily lest I drown under its weighty implications. Yet despite this hesitance rooted deep within myself like ancient roots clinging desperately to the earth, I make an effort for you.

In those rare moments when we are alone together, I try my best to bridge the gap between us—to offer a glimpse of vulnerability that lies dormant within. It is not an easy task; it requires me to step outside my comfort zone and venture into uncharted territory. But for you, I am willing to brave these unfamiliar waters.

The Love That Transcends

Love is a concept foreign yet familiar—a paradoxical enigma that eludes comprehension yet demands acknowledgement. And though love may be alien to me in its conventional form—soft words whispered against tender skin or stolen glances laced with hidden intentions—I have come to understand its essence through our connection.

It exists in the quiet understanding shared between two souls—the unspoken language of hearts beating in synchrony amidst a chaotic world. In your presence, loneliness dissipates like mist under the morning sun—a fleeting memory banished by warmth and acceptance.

Conclusion

The weight of loneliness has burdened me for far too long—an invisible shackle chaining me down even as others roam freely around me. But with your presence gracing my solitary existence, this heaviness begins to lift inch by inch until it becomes little more than a distant echo carried away on Liyue's gentle breeze.

Though solitude may still find solace within Wangshu Inn's hallowed halls and silence may remain my constant companion, know that you have become something extraordinary amidst this sea of ordinary existence—an anchor grounding me firmly amidst life's tempestuous waves.

Together, we defy expectations and embrace what others cannot comprehend—the beauty found within the depths of isolation—and forge ahead hand-in-hand towards an uncertain future where love knows no bounds and lonely hearts find solace at last.


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