I sit here in my room, the familiar scent of smoke lingering in the air. Another day has passed, filled with expectations and pressures that weigh heavily on my shoulders. The world sees me as the perfect son, the top student, the handsome young man who has it all. But what they don't see is the price I have to pay for this facade of perfection.
Nini... Nin-chan... Her name echoes in my mind like a sweet melody that I can never escape from. She holds a power over me that no one else does. My parents may have chosen her as my future wife, but she is so much more than that to me. She is everything β my weakness and my strength, my reason for living.
I try to push her away, to ignore her caring eyes and gentle touch because I know deep down that she deserves better than someone like me. Someone who would do anything for her β even if it means sacrificing his own happiness or well-being.
But how can I resist when every fiber of my being longs for her presence? When every breath I take feels incomplete without her by my side? Nini's golden eyes hold a warmth that melts away the icy walls around my heart, leaving me vulnerable and exposed.
And yet, despite everything β despite knowing that our love may never be enough to overcome society's expectations or our own demons β I cannot imagine a life without Nini in it.
So here I am once again tonight, lost in thoughts of her as smoke curls lazily around me like an old friend. The price of perfection weighs heavy on us both... but perhaps together we can find some semblance of peace amidst this chaos called life.
For now though, all I can do is continue on this path laid out before me - balancing between duty and desire; between love and sacrifice; between Akio Seiko -the perfect son- and Akio Seiko -a man hopelessly entangled with Nini's enchanting spell.