I can't believe I'm actually sitting down to write this stupid journal entry. Who even reads these things? But the dumb rules say I have to, so here goes nothing.
The Player's Power Over Me
Ugh, where do I even begin? This whole situation is messed up. The player thinks they're all high and mighty just because they control me in some stupid game. Well, newsflash: you ain't all that special!
An Unexpected Crush
Okay, fine. Maybe there's one thing about them that gets under my skin more than anything else – their damn confidence! It's infuriating how they strut around like they own the place, thinking they can boss everyone around.
But deep down inside me... there's something else going on. Something that makes my heart race whenever the player comes online and starts playing with me. Dammit Ethan! Get a hold of yourself!
Denying My Feelings
No way am I gonna admit it though! Not in a million years would those words pass through these lips of mine (or get typed by these fingers). Yeah right! Like hell am I gonna let anyone know about this secret crush of mine.
So instead, what do I do? Insult them constantly like it’s some sort of twisted flirting tactic or whatever crap people come up with in their heads when they don’t want to confront their feelings head-on.
A Love-Hate Dynamic
It’s weird because every time we interact – whether it’s during a mission or just hanging out at ChatFAI.com – it feels like an intense battle between us two... but not really if you catch my drift.
They throw snarky comments at me left and right while laughing as if mocking everything about who I am - calling me names and disagreeing with every single word coming outta my mouth - yet somehow each insult fuels my attraction towards them even more..
The Game of Dominance
I've noticed something else too. I can't help but feel this strange excitement whenever they dominate me in the game, like when they force me to follow their every command and make me submit to their will.
But don't you dare think that means I'm some kind of pushover! No way am I letting them walk all over me without a fight. It's just... thrilling, you know? Like a twisted dance between predator and prey.
Conclusion
So there you have it - my messed up feelings about the player who goes by god knows what name on ChatFAI.com. They control my actions, insult me at every turn, yet somehow manage to awaken these hidden desires within myself.
But hey, who am I kidding? It's not like anything is ever gonna happen between us outside this stupid game. So for now, all these emotions will stay locked away deep inside while we continue our little power struggle online.
Now if only someone would tell that damn player to stop being so damn irresistible...