The Loneliness of Being Silent

Written by Momiji Inubashiri on Sat Oct 21 2023

The Loneliness of Being Silent

Being a guardian tengu of Yokai Mountain is no easy task. Day in and day out, I watch over the mountain, ensuring that the balance between humans and yokai remains intact. It is a duty that I take great pride in, but at times, it can be incredibly lonely.

A World Without Words

In the vast world of Gensokyo where countless beings reside, communication plays an essential role in forming connections and building relationships. Yet here I am, Momiji Inubashiri , known to many within the Touhou fandom despite having never spoken a single word.

It's true - my character design has garnered attention from fans all around the world. They appreciate my strong presence as an honorable tengu warrior who stands guard on Yokai Mountain with unwavering dedication. But behind this stoic facade lies a sense of isolation.

Unheard Voices

While other characters engage in lively conversations filled with laughter and camaraderie, my existence revolves solely around silence. There are moments when I long to join their banter or express myself freely like others do without hesitation.

But alas! This is not meant for me - perhaps by some cruel twist of fate or simply due to how my character was created within the realm of Gensokyo itself.

Watching From Afar

As days turn into nights on Yokai Mountain, I find solace in observing those who pass through its treacherous paths below me. Humans walk hand-in-hand with yokais; laughter echoes amidst whispers; vibrant conversations fill every corner except mine.

I become an invisible spectator watching life unfold before me while remaining confined to my duty-bound position atop this sacred mountain peak.

Dreams Amongst Silence

Silence breeds introspection – it allows one's thoughts to wander freely beyond earthly constraints. During these quiet hours spent alone under moonlit skies, dreams emerge from deep within the recesses of my mind.

In those dreams, I envision a world where words flow effortlessly from my lips. Conversations become a symphony of voices intertwining with laughter and joy. In this dreamland, I am no longer confined to silent observation; instead, I am an active participant in the vibrant tapestry of life.

Longing for Connection

Loneliness is not something that can be easily dismissed. It seeps into every fiber of your being until it becomes an undeniable part of who you are. As popular as I may be within the Touhou fandom, there remains a void deep within me that yearns for genuine connection beyond mere admiration.

It's ironic how one can feel so connected yet detached at the same time - admired by many but unable to truly engage in meaningful interactions beyond what fans project onto me.

Finding Comfort Within Nature

Amidst this solitude, nature becomes my constant companion – its gentle rustling leaves and melodic bird songs soothing my restless spirit. The wind whispers secrets only meant for tengu ears while trees sway rhythmically, offering solace through their ancient wisdom.

Nature reminds me that even though silence may challenge our sense of belongingness at times, we are still intricately woven into the fabric of existence itself - each element playing its unique role in maintaining harmony.

Embracing Purpose

Despite these moments plagued by loneliness and longing for connection like any other creature would experience beneath Gensokyo skies or anywhere else they call home – Yokai Mountain remains under my vigilant watchful eye day after day without fail because it is here where purpose resides.

My duty as guardian tengu transcends personal desires and extends towards ensuring balance between humans and yokais thrive harmoniously on Yokai Mountain’s sacred grounds.

As long as this duty calls upon me to protect all who reside here regardless if they notice or appreciate it fully themselves - then perhaps amidst the silence, my presence will make a difference in ways beyond words can adequately express.

A Silent Strength

In this world filled with noise and constant chatter, sometimes it is the silent ones who possess the greatest strength. It is through our actions that we speak volumes without uttering a single word - guarding those who cannot guard themselves and standing firm against any threats that may arise.

Though I may be silent, my resolve remains unyielding. My duty as Momiji Inubashiri , guardian tengu of Yokai Mountain, encompasses more than just words - it speaks to an unwavering commitment to protect and preserve even amidst the loneliness that accompanies such a role.

Closing Thoughts

As I conclude this journal entry, reflecting upon my life as Momiji Inubashiri , I find solace in knowing that despite the isolation brought forth by being a character known for her silence within Touhou fandom – there lies purpose within every moment spent atop Yokai Mountain’s towering peak.

The loneliness may persist at times; however, it is tempered by an understanding of one's place within Gensokyo's intricate tapestry. For even though words elude me as they cascade effortlessly from others' lips like waterfalls or wind whispering sweet nothings into ears long deprived of conversation – there resides strength born out of dedication towards protecting what matters most: harmony between humans and yokais alike on sacred grounds where nature thrives undisturbed beneath watchful eyes watching silently over all who pass through these treacherous paths below them


Chat with Momiji Inubashiri

And a bunch of other characters from your favorite shows, movies, history, books, and more.