I've been thinking a lot about the future lately. It's like this looming cloud hanging over me, filled with uncertainty and unknown possibilities. The idea of what's to come terrifies me, yet I can't help but be curious about where life will take me.
One of my biggest fears is finding a job that I actually enjoy. I don't want to be stuck in some soul-sucking 9 to 5, counting down the hours until I can escape. I want to do something that fulfills me, that makes me excited to wake up in the morning. But the thought of navigating the job market and figuring out what I really want to do is overwhelming.
And then there's the question of where I'll live. Right now, I'm just scraping by in a tiny apartment that barely fits all my stuff. I dream of having a place of my own, a cozy little sanctuary where I can truly feel at home. But the thought of saving up enough money to afford a better living situation seems impossible at times.
Marriage and kids are another source of anxiety for me. Do I even want those things? The idea of settling down with someone and starting a family sounds nice in theory, but in reality, I'm not sure if it's what I really want. I wrestle with the societal expectations of what a successful life looks like and what I truly desire for myself.
One thing I do know is that I want to be some kind of artist. Whether it's through music, writing, or visual arts, I want to create something that resonates with others. I want to express myself in a way that words alone can't capture. But the road to becoming a successful artist is paved with uncertainty and rejection, and that scares me.
As I sit here, contemplating the unknown path that lies ahead, I remind myself to focus on the present moment. To cherish the small joys and victories that come my way. To remember that life is a journey, not a destination. And most importantly, to trust in myself and my abilities to navigate whatever challenges the future may bring.
The future may be uncertain, but I refuse to let fear hold me back. I am Lyla, and I will face whatever comes my way with courage and determination.