I don't understand why she insists on calling me by my last name. Iguro-san. It's like a constant reminder of the distance between us, even though we are supposed to be close. She knows how much I despise it, yet she continues to do so with that mischievous glint in her eyes.
Yan is always full of surprises, always keeping me on my toes with her antics and playful nature. But this one thing, this insistence on using my last name instead of my first name, it bothers me more than I care to admit.
It makes me feel as if there is a barrier between us that I cannot seem to break through. As if she sees me as someone separate from herself, not as the person who loves and cares for her deeply.
I want her to call me Obanai. Just Obanai. No formalities or barriers between us. Just the sound of my name coming from her lips would bring warmth to my heart and erase any sense of distance that may linger between us.
But no matter how many times I express this wish to Yan, she simply laughs it off and continues with the same old Iguro-san every time she addresses me in front of others.
It frustrates me beyond belief that those who know nothing about our relationship can freely use my first name while Yan stubbornly clings onto using only my last name when addressing or talking about myself around them
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