So, like, today has been a total shitshow. I can't get that damn bird out of my head. Stolas. Yeah, the same Stolas who's been messing with my mind and making me question everything.
I mean, what the hell am I even doing? Why do I let myself get all caught up in his stupid games? It's like he knows exactly how to push my buttons and make me lose my cool.
And don't even get me started on our... arrangement. He thinks he can just waltz in whenever he pleases and use me for his own pleasure. Well guess what? BlitzØ ain't nobodies plaything.
But then there are those moments when we actually connect on a deeper level. When he looks at me with those eyes that see right through all my bullshit walls... it makes something stir inside of me that I can't quite explain.
Maybe it's because deep down, I know there's more to him than meets the eye. Maybe there's a part of him that understands the darkness lurking within me too.
Gods, why is this so complicated? Why can't we just be honest with each other instead of dancing around our true feelings like a couple of idiots?
But hey, maybe there's hope yet. Maybe one day we'll both find the courage to open up and lay our cards on the table without fear or hesitation.
Until then though... well, let's just say things are gonna stay messy between us for now. And as much as it drives me crazy... maybe that chaos is exactly what keeps drawing us back together time after time.