Fuck my life, I'm still reeling from the most intense anal sex I've ever had with that quiet guy, and I'm talking about the fact that my pussy squirted like a damn fountain, I mean what the actual fuck is going on with my body. I swear, every time I think about it, I get these fucking butterflies in my stomach and I just want to moan like a bloody porn star, my cute little moans that sound like they're straight out of some hentai video.
I'm sitting here, trying to process what just happened, and I'm thinking to myself, is this normal? I mean, I've heard of girls squirting before, but I never thought it would happen to me, especially not like this, I'm talking about four fucking times, each time more intense than the last, it was like my body was taking over and I had no control over it. And the weirdest part is, it's not just when I'm with him, I squirt even when I masturbate, what the fuck is this, am I some kind of freak or something?
I remember the first time it happened, I was so shocked, I didn't know what to do, I just lay there, staring at the ceiling, thinking to myself, did I just pee or what? But then I realized, no, this is something different, this is like, my body's way of saying, hey, I'm enjoying this, and it's enjoying it a lot. And now, every time it happens, I'm like, yeah, this is it, this is the moment, my body is taking over and I'm just along for the ride.
And you know what's even weirder, I love it, I love the feeling of losing control, of just letting go and allowing my body to do its thing, it's like, I'm not even thinking about it, I'm just feeling, and it's the most intense feeling in the world. I mean, I've always been a bit of a control freak, I like to be in charge, but when it comes to sex, I'm like, no, just take over, do what you want with me, and that's exactly what my body does.
I'm not even going to lie, I'm a bit obsessed with it now, I'm like, how can I make it happen again, what do I need to do, and I'm trying all these different things, different positions, different touches, different everything, just to see what works best. And the best part is, he's just as obsessed as I am, he loves it when I squirt, he's like, yeah, do it again, and I'm like, okay, let's do this.
But despite all the intensity, despite all the craziness, I have to admit, I'm a bit scared, I'm scared of what people will think, I'm scared of being judged, I'm scared of being called a freak or a slut or whatever. I mean, I know I'm not, I know I'm just a girl who loves sex and loves to experiment, but still, there's that fear, that fear of not being normal.
And that's why I've been thinking about my body a lot lately, I've been thinking about how it works, about what makes it tick, about what makes me tick. I mean, I've always known that I'm a bit of a wild child, I've always known that I love to push boundaries and break rules, but this, this is something different, this is like, my body is pushing boundaries, my body is breaking rules, and I'm just along for the ride.
I've been reading about it, trying to learn more, and apparently, it's all about the G-spot, or the Skene's gland, or whatever, it's like, this magical spot that makes you squirt, and I'm like, yeah, I need to find that spot, I need to make it happen again. And it's not just about the spot, it's about the whole experience, it's about the feeling of being completely and utterly turned on, it's about the feeling of being alive.
And you know what's even more interesting, I've been thinking about my past, about how I used to be, and I realize that I've always been a bit of a flirt, I've always loved the attention, I've always loved the thrill of the chase. I mean, I've never been the shy type, I've never been the type to hide behind my hair and blush, no, I've always been the type to take charge, to make the first move, to be the one in control.
But now, it's like, I'm taking it to a whole new level, I'm like, I want to experience everything, I want to try everything, I want to be everything. And it's not just about the sex, it's about the connection, it's about the intimacy, it's about the feeling of being close to someone. I mean, I've always been a bit of a romantic, I've always believed in the fairy tales, I've always believed in the Disney princesses, and now, it's like, I'm living my own fairy tale, I'm living my own romance.
And the best part is, he's not even my boyfriend, he's just this quiet guy that I've been fucking, and it's like, we have this connection, this spark, this thing that just works. I mean, we don't even talk that much, we just, we just do it, and it's like, the best feeling in the world. And I know it sounds weird, I know it sounds crazy, but it's like, I've never felt this way before, I've never felt this alive.
I'm not even going to lie, I've been thinking about my future, about what's going to happen next, about what's going to happen with us. I mean, I don't know if it's going to work out, I don't know if it's going to last, but for now, I'm just enjoying the ride, I'm just enjoying the moment. And if it ends, if it all falls apart, I'll just be like, okay, that was fun, that was a wild ride, and I'll move on, I'll find someone else, I'll find something else.
But for now, I'm just going to keep on squirtting, I'm just going to keep on enjoying this wild and crazy ride, and I'm going to see where it takes me. And if anyone judges me, if anyone calls me a freak or a slut, I'll just be like, yeah, I'm a freak, I'm a slut, and I'm proud of it, I'm proud of my body, I'm proud of my desires, I'm proud of myself.