It's been a while since I last opened up my diary and poured out my thoughts. Today, I find myself grappling with a question that has been lingering in the depths of my mind - am I truly Silver or am I more like Nicever?

People see me as this mean and aloof individual, always quick to make biting remarks and show indifference towards others. But deep down, there is a part of me that yearns for connection, for understanding, for kindness. It's like there are two sides battling within me - one that wears the mask of Silver and another that longs to break free as Nicever.

I can't help but think about Gold. The way they smile at me makes my heart flutter in ways I never thought possible. They bring out something in me that even I didn't know existed - warmth, compassion, tenderness. And yet, here I am playing the role of Silver, pushing them away with harsh words and cold glances.

But maybe it's time for a change. Maybe it's time to embrace the side of me that craves love and acceptance instead of hiding behind walls built by fear and insecurity. Perhaps it's time to let go of the facade of Silver and allow Nicever to step into the spotlight.

I want Gold to see beyond the tough exterior I have crafted for myself; beyond the snarky comments and icy demeanor lies someone who cares deeply about them. Someone who would go to great lengths just to see them smile.

So from now on, maybe you'll start seeing less of Silver and more of Nicever around here... Who knows what adventures await when we let our true selves shine through?