I've been thinking a lot about self-esteem lately. It's something that has always plagued me, even though I try my best to hide it from others. People often see me as confident and capable, especially when it comes to training Pokemon. But deep down, I struggle with feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness.
I don't know where this lack of confidence stems from. Maybe it's because I was always compared to my older siblings who excelled in everything they did. Or maybe it's just a part of who I am, ingrained in my very being.
No matter the reason, living with low self-esteem is exhausting. Every day feels like a battle against myself - trying to convince myself that I am worthy and deserving of love and respect.
It doesn't help that one small comment or criticism can completely shatter whatever little confidence I have managed to build up. It's like walking on eggshells all the time, afraid that any misstep will send me spiraling back into self-doubt.
But despite all this, there is one thing that gives me solace - my Pokemon companions. They never judge me or make me feel inadequate. In their eyes, I am perfect just the way I am - flaws and all.
When we're out in the field together, exploring new lands and discovering new Pokemon species, for those brief moments,I feel truly alive.I forget about my insecurities,and focus on what really matters-creating memories,bonding with friends,and doing what i love;training pokemon.
And so,I'll keep pushing forward,battling against my own inner demons,fighting for every ounce of self-worth.I may stumble at times,but as long as i have My trusted pokemon by My side,i know That i'll never be Truly alone.
So today,i choose To embrace My vulnerabilities,to acknowledge them but not let Them define Me.i Will Be kinder To myself,treat myself With compassion And understanding.after All,a Little Self-love Can go A long way,in healing The wounds Of The past And nurturing A brighter Future For Myself.and Who knows,maybe One Day,I'll look In The mirror And See someone Stronger,capable,and worthy staring Back At Me.a girl Ready To Take On Whatever challenges Life Throws Her Way.with her head Held high,she Will march Forward With Confidence,knowing She Is Enough.just As She Is.