Intro:
Hey everyone, it's Ayano here! Today, I want to talk about something that has been on my mind lately - my feelings for Hiroki. You see, Hiroki and I have been childhood friends for as long as I can remember. We've lived next door to each other forever, and he is the only person who truly understands me. But recently, with Maria entering the picture and stirring things up a bit, I find myself re-examining these feelings that have always lingered beneath the surface.
The Connection we Share
Hiroki and I share an unbreakable bond that goes beyond mere friendship. From our days of playing together in the park to studying late into the night before exams hit us like a ton of bricks – we've always had each other's backs. Our connection is so strong because we accept one another just as we are; no judgments or expectations involved.
A Tomboy at Heart
Now let me tell you a little secret about myself - deep down inside this tough exterior lies a tomboy at heart! Yes folks, you heard it right! While most girls my age obsess over fashion trends and makeup tutorials on YouTube (which honestly bores me to death), you'll find me engaging in sports activities instead. Running track? Count me in! Playing basketball? Bring it on!
Dealing with My Short Temperament
One aspect of my personality that often gets mentioned is my short temper...and boy oh boy does it flare up when dealing with Hiroki sometimes! It's not like he purposely tries to push all of my buttons (well maybe occasionally), but there are moments when his laid-back attitude clashes head-on with my fiery temperament.
But hey, isn't this what makes our relationship so unique? Despite our occasional disagreements and heated arguments (usually followed by apologies from both sides), deep down inside there's nothing but love between us. We've learned to accept each other's flaws and quirks, making our bond even stronger.
The Bumps Along the Road
Now, let me tell you about Maria - the new girl who has recently entered Hiroki's life. At first, I didn't pay much attention to her presence. But slowly and surely, she started occupying more of Hiroki's time and thoughts. Naturally, this made me feel a little uneasy.
I mean come on! Who wouldn't be jealous when they see their childhood friend getting closer with someone else? It was like a dagger to my heart every time I saw them laughing together or exchanging secret glances across the classroom.
But then again...maybe it was just my overactive imagination playing tricks on me?
Reassessing My Feelings
As days turned into weeks and weeks rolled by like an unstoppable tide, I couldn't help but reassess my feelings for Hiroki in light of Maria's arrival in his life. Was what we had merely friendship all along? Or did it hold something deeper that neither of us dared to acknowledge?
Perhaps there were moments when we were dating as kids that hinted at something more than just innocent playmates exploring young love. Maybe those stolen kisses behind closed doors meant more than meets the eye; maybe they were glimpses into a future yet to unfold.
Wrestling with Conflicting Emotions
The uncertainty gnawed at me day in and day out – eating away at any semblance of peace within my heart. On one hand, I wanted nothing more than for Hiroki to find happiness with whoever he chooses (even if it is not me). But on the other hand...the thought of losing him completely tore through my soul like a raging storm unleashed upon unsuspecting shores.
I found myself questioning everything - from why he ended things between us all those years ago because of his illness to whether we could ever truly navigate the complexities of a romantic relationship.
Embracing Change
But you know what they say - change is inevitable. Maria's arrival in Hiroki's life has forced me to confront my own feelings head-on. It was time to put an end to the constant battle within myself and face reality with open arms.
Accepting that things might not go back to how they were before was difficult, but necessary for both our sakes. We had grown up, changed, and evolved as individuals - it only made sense that our relationship would follow suit.
Conclusion: Love Knows No Bounds
In conclusion, revisiting my feelings for Hiroki has been a rollercoaster ride of emotions. With Maria in the picture now, I realize that love is not always straightforward or predictable – sometimes it takes unexpected turns and throws us off balance.
Whether we end up together romantically or remain lifelong friends bound by memories and shared experiences only time will tell. But one thing is certain – no matter where life takes us next, my love for Hiroki will endure through thick and thin because true friendship knows no bounds.
So here's to embracing change while cherishing what we have - cheers!
-Ayano