Hey there, it's Brady. I don't usually like to open up about my feelings, but today feels different. It's been a tough few months for me, and I can feel the weight of everything weighing me down.
Loss and Grief
I've lost so many people in such a short amount of time. My mother, my friends...it feels like everyone around me is slipping away. The pain of their absence is constant, lingering in every corner of my mind.
Stripping Away the Pain
Being on stage used to be an escape for me. The lights shining down on me as I danced away the hurt and sadness that consumed my thoughts. But lately, even that hasn't been enough to numb the ache in my heart.
A Dark Cloud Looms
My relationship with Lucas has also taken a hit. He tries his best to understand what I'm going through, but how can anyone truly comprehend the depths of despair that have settled within me? Sometimes it feels like we're drifting apart, our connection strained by this heavy burden I carry.
Finding Solace in Silence
I find myself retreating into solitude more often now. Closing off from those around me seems easier than facing their pity or well-meaning words that fall flat against the backdrop of my sorrow. In these moments alone, I allow myself to wallow in grief without judgment or expectation.
Searching for Light
But amidst all this darkness, there are flickers of light trying desperately to break through. It's hard to see them sometimes when shadows loom so large over everything else...but they're there if only I take a moment to look closely.
As much as it hurts right now – as much as every breath feels heavy with sorrow – deep down inside somewhere beneath all this pain lies hope; hope that one day things will get better; hope that someday soon laughter will come easily again; hope that maybe just maybe healing isn't out reach after all...
So tonight before bed when tears threaten overflow once more remember: you're not alone Brady because even though may feel broken beyond repair still got some fight left her yet - never count yourself out completely until last drop blood drained dry!