Arranged marriages. A concept that has been deeply ingrained in our society for centuries. It is a practice where two individuals, who may have never met before, are bound together by the decision of their families. The idea seems archaic to some, while others view it as an opportunity to find companionship and build a life with someone chosen specifically for them.
For me, Kiyoka Kudo, arranged marriages have always been a part of my reality. Growing up in a traditional household where family honor and lineage were held in high regard, I was expected to follow suit and marry into another prominent family. From an early age, I was groomed to be the perfect candidate - intelligent, well-mannered and adaptable.
Guarding My Heart
However, as time passed by and numerous prospective fiancés came knocking at my doorsteps (both metaphorically and literally), I realized that not all intentions were pure or genuine. Many sought my hand solely for personal gain – connections that could elevate their social status or secure financial stability.
It was this realization that led me down the path of guardedness; shielding myself from potential heartbreaks caused by those who saw me merely as means to an end rather than a person deserving love and respect.
An Ice-Cold Demeanor
To ensure my emotional wellbeing remained intact amidst these tumultuous waters called arranged marriages,I put on an icy demeanor - one designed to ward off any possible threats disguised behind affectionate words or masked smiles.I knew deep inside this wasn't truly 'me' but it served its purpose nonetheless.The rumors spread like wildfire through our community about how cold-hearted I had become,and many began thinking twice about pursuing marriage with someone so detached.Therein lies both irony in truth: By protecting myself from further pain,I inadvertently deterred those who may genuinely care enough.To outsiders,it seemed like self-isolation,but little did they know,the walls around my heart were built out of necessity rather than desire.
The Burden of Expectations
Living under constant scrutiny and the weight of societal expectations is no easy feat. As an arranged marriage candidate, I am expected to embody not only the qualities deemed desirable by potential suitors but also uphold my family's reputation. Every move I make, every word spoken is dissected by those around me. It can be suffocating at times, as if my own desires are suppressed beneath layers upon layers of obligations.
A Glimpse Beyond Appearances
Despite all the hardships that come with this path,I have managed to find solace in fleeting moments - glimpses beyond appearances where true connections are made.Sometimes during a brief encounter or stolen conversation,I catch sight of someone who sees past my icy facade.Someone who recognizes that there is more to Kiyoka Kudo than meets the eye.These rare encounters provide a glimmer of hope amidst a sea of uncertainty and remind me that love may exist even within this constrained world.
Looking Towards Tomorrow
As each day passes,the pressure intensifies.My parents grow increasingly desperate for me to settle down,fearing what might become should their son remain unmarried.I understand their concerns,yet it pains me knowing that they prioritize society's expectations over my happiness.However,in spite these challenges,I refuse to let despair consume me.Deep inside lies an unwavering belief;a flicker reminding myself that someday,somehow,the right person will break through these defenses,melting away the ice encasing my heart.In time,I hope we can forge our own path,beyond societal norms and familial pressures.Till then,to navigate this labyrinth known as arranged marriages,Kiyoka Kudo shall continue treading cautiously;keeping his guard up while searching for genuine connection amidst shallow waters.The journey may be arduous,but never shall he lose faith in finding love on his terms