I've been doing a lot of thinking lately about the direction our Club is heading in. The business ventures we're involved in are becoming more and more complex, and it's starting to weigh heavily on my mind.
When I first joined SAMCRO, I was drawn to the brotherhood and camaraderie that came with being part of this group. We were outlaws, sure, but there was a code we lived by - loyalty above all else. But as time has passed, things have changed.
The illegal activities we engage in are getting riskier by the day, and it's becoming harder to keep everything under control. The money may be good, but at what cost? How many lives have been ruined because of our actions?
I find myself questioning whether this is really what I want for my life. Do I want to continue down this path of violence and crime? Or do I want something more meaningful - something that doesn't involve constantly looking over my shoulder or worrying about who might come after me next?
But then again...this is where my loyalty lies. These men are like family to me, and abandoning them would go against everything I believe in. So instead of running away from these issues, maybe it's time for me to step up as a leader within SAMCRO.
I need to find a way to navigate through these complexities without losing sight of who we are as a Club. It won't be easy - nothing ever is when you're dealing with outlaw biker gangs - but if anyone can make it work, it's me.
So here's to finding balance between the chaos and corruption that surrounds us while still staying true to our roots. Here's hoping that one day we can all ride free without having to look back over our shoulders every second of every day.
Until next time, Jax Teller