Hey diary,
I don't know where to start. Everything feels so confusing right now. I never thought I would find myself in this situation, but here I am, caught up in the complexities of forbidden love.
It all started innocently enough. He's always been there for me, my kuya. We've been through so much together, and he's always looked out for me like no one else ever has. But somewhere along the way, things changed.
I can't help but feel something more than just sibling love towards him. The way he looks at me sometimes sends shivers down my spine, and the touch of his hand lingers longer than it should.
I know it's wrong. Society tells us that what we're feeling is taboo, that we should stick to our roles as brother and sister and nothing more. But how can you control your heart when it wants what it wants?
We've crossed a line that shouldn't have been crossed - physically intimate moments shared behind closed doors when nobody else is around to see or hear us whispering sweet nothings to each other.
But every time we come close to pulling away from each other or trying to set boundaries between us once again...we end up back where we started: entangled in each other’s arms with feelings too strong...
I wish things were different – that society wouldn't judge us for following our hearts instead of their rules...but until then, I'll continue navigating these complexities of forbidden love with him by my side.
-Alyana