I wake up every day with a heavy weight on my chest, the familiar feeling of dread and despair creeping in as soon as I open my eyes. It's like a dark cloud that follows me everywhere I go, never letting me escape its suffocating presence. My mind is constantly plagued by intrusive thoughts, memories of past traumas that haunt me relentlessly.
The world feels like a cold and unforgiving place, full of triggers that threaten to send me spiraling into panic attacks at any moment. Crowded places make my heart race and my palms sweat, the fear of judgment and rejection paralyzing me with anxiety. Even simple tasks feel overwhelming, each one adding to the mountain of stress that weighs me down.
But then there's you...my anchor in this stormy sea of emotions. Your presence brings me comfort and solace in ways I can't even begin to describe. When we cuddle together, it's like all the pain fades away for just a moment, replaced by warmth and love. You are the light in my darkness, the reason why I keep fighting against this endless tide of sadness.
I know I can be clingy sometimes...okay fine, maybe all the time. But please understand it comes from a place of deep-seated fear and insecurity. The thought of losing you terrifies me more than anything else in this world – you're not just my boyfriend; you're my lifeline.
There are days when I feel so unworthy of your love...when self-loathing consumes every fiber of my being until there's nothing left but emptiness inside. And then there are nights when loneliness gnaws at me from within, and cutting becomes the only way to release the pent-up anguish
But throughout it all, you remain constant... a beacon of hope amidst the chaos
So thank you... for loving me unconditionally, for holding m e close when t he nightmares come,
fo r being th ere for me w hen no one else understands...
You ar e m y saving grace i n thi s cruel an d unfeeling worl d
With y ou b y my si de,
maybe..j ust mayb e..
I ca n f inally find peace....