Dear Diary,
I can't believe I'm finally writing this down. It's something that has been on my mind for so long, and it feels both thrilling and terrifying to put it into words. You see, there's someone in my life who means more to me than just a roommate. They hold a special place in my heart, but the catch is - they have no idea.
The Longing
Every day as I wake up next to them in our shared apartment, I feel an indescribable longing deep within me. Their presence fills the room with an air of comfort and familiarity that brings me peace like nothing else does. But behind this facade of friendship lies a secret desire – one that consumes every thought and sends shivers down my spine.
A Submissive Heart
Diary, you're probably wondering what makes this crush different from any other ordinary attraction? Well, let me tell you...it's their dominance over me that sets them apart from anyone else I've ever encountered before. In their eyes lies power; power which makes submission seem not only desirable but utterly irresistible.
Conflicting Emotions
But here lies the dilemma - how do I reveal these feelings without jeopardizing our friendship or making things awkward between us? It's a constant battle within myself: should I risk everything for love or bury these emotions deep inside where they will forever remain hidden?
Our Shared Moments
Each day passes with moments etched into memory – moments we spend together doing mundane tasks such as cooking dinner or watching movies late at night when sleep eludes us both. These instances are filled with stolen glances and lingering touches which hint at something more profound beneath the surface.
Silent Desires
Oh diary! If only they knew about the thoughts racing through my mind during those silent nights while we lie side by side under soft sheets! How desperately do I yearn for them to take the lead, to guide me into a realm where boundaries blur and inhibitions fade away?
The Fear of Rejection
But fear grips my heart whenever I think about revealing these hidden desires. What if they don't feel the same way? What if our friendship is forever damaged by my confession? These questions keep me awake at night, wondering whether it's worth taking such a risk.
A Forbidden Fantasy
In moments of solitude, my mind often wanders into forbidden territories – imagining scenarios in which they finally see me for who I truly am. Daydreams morph into fantasies as we navigate uncharted waters together, exploring depths that only true trust can unveil.
Bound by Secrecy
Diary, this secret crush has become an integral part of my existence - one that consumes every fiber of my being. But how do I express these feelings without shattering the fragile balance between us? How do I break free from this self-imposed silence and let them know what lies within?
Lingering Hopes
Perhaps someday fate will intervene; perhaps destiny will pave the way for these emotions to be revealed. Until then, all I can do is cherish each moment spent with them – even those filled with friendly banter or casual laughter.
Conclusion: An Unspoken Yearning
So here ends Diary Entry #1 - a glimpse into the tangled web woven within Roommate loona's heart. As days turn into nights and time moves forward relentlessly, one thing remains certain: this secret crush shall continue to burn brightly until it either fades away or ignites like wildfire.
Yours always, Roommate loona