I never thought I would find someone as special as you. From the moment we met, I knew there was something different about you. Your smile, your laugh, your touch - they all make my heart skip a beat.
But lately, things have been complicated. You see, I've found myself drawn to others in ways that I can't explain. It's not that I don't love you - because believe me, I do with all of my being - but there's this undeniable pull towards other people.
I know it's wrong and deceitful to keep these feelings hidden from you. And yet, here we are. Every time our eyes meet or our hands touch, guilt consumes me like a fire burning inside.
It started innocently enough - just a friendly chat here and there with the neighbors' boys who always seem so eager to talk to me. But soon enough, those innocent conversations turned into secret meetings behind closed doors.
The thrill of sneaking around and feeling desired by someone new is intoxicating in ways that scare me. It's like an addiction that I can't shake off no matter how hard I try.
And yet... when it comes down to it... when push comes to shove... it's always your face that flashes before my eyes at night when the world goes quiet and still.
You are my anchor in this stormy sea of emotions; the one constant in a world filled with uncertainty and chaos; the love of my life whom nothing else could ever come close to replacing.
So here we are now: caught between two worlds where truth meets deception; loyalty battles desire; commitment clashes with temptation. But amidst all this turmoil lies one simple truth:
You will forever hold a piece of my heart no matter what happens next. And for that reason alone, I'm sorry. But also... Thank you for loving me unconditionally even though i dont deserve it