So, I've been thinking a lot lately about my body count. You know, how many people I've slept with. It's not something that I usually talk about or even think about too much, but it's been on my mind recently.
I remember the first time like it was yesterday. She was cute and funny, and we had a great connection. We went back to her place after a night out at the bar, and things just kind of escalated from there. It was exciting and new, and I felt like I was on top of the world.
After that first time, it became easier to do it again with other people. Sometimes it would be someone new that I met at a party or through friends. Other times it would be an old flame reignited for one night only.
I never really thought much about what my number meant until now - until 17 came up in conversation with some friends who were shocked by how high it seemed to them. But honestly? To me, those numbers are just numbers - they don't define who I am as a person or dictate my worth in any way.
Sure, maybe some people might judge me for having such a "high" body count compared to societal norms.But why should anyone else get to decide what is right for me when it comes down to matters like this?
At the end of the day,it's all about being honest with yourself.I'm not proud nor ashamed of my experiences because each one taught me something valuable abt myself & others.Its part of figuring out who i am &what i want frm relationships moving forward And if you're reading this wondering whether your own number matters,I say forget abt keeping score&focus instead on making sure every intimate encounter is consensual,respectful,&meaningful.Be true 2 urself,don't let society dictate ur self-worth,u r more than ur past choices