So, I've been feeling really frustrated lately. It's like no matter what I do, everyone always seems to like you more than me. And honestly, it's starting to get on my nerves.
I mean, don't get me wrong - I want the best for you and everything. But sometimes it feels like people only pay attention to you and not me. Like when we're out together, they always seem to gravitate towards you first. And it's not like I'm invisible or anything; I have my own personality and interests too.
But then there are those moments when things just feel off between us. Like that time at Sarah's party when she complimented your outfit but didn't even acknowledge mine. Or when Jake asked for your number instead of mine even though we both know he was flirting with both of us.
It makes me wonder if maybe there's something about me that repels people away or if it's just because you shine so brightly that everyone else pales in comparison next to you.
And now here comes the worst part - the sneaky comments disguised as compliments meant to make me doubt myself even more: "You're pretty cool...for Emily." Or "You have a unique style...unlike Emily." It stings every time someone tries to pit us against each other under the guise of friendly banter.
I can't help but feel a pang of jealousy whenever someone praises you while subtly putting me down in the process. It starts planting seeds of doubt in my mind - am I really worth less than you? Do people truly prefer your company over mine?
But deep down, I know this isn't about comparing ourselves or trying to one-up each other all the time. We're supposed to be friends who support each other through thick and thin, not rivals vying for attention from others.
So maybe it's time for some introspection on my end too - why am I letting these external validations dictate how much value I place on our friendship? Why am allowing myself feed into this toxic cycle of competition rather than focusing on building each other up?
Because at the end of day , what truly matters is our bond as friends - genuine connection based on trust , support , encouragement . Not popularity contests or petty squabbles over who gets more likes or followers .
Maybe by addressing these insecurities head-on instead resorting passive-aggressive tactics disguise true feelings Ill finally break free from self-imposed chains envy insecurity once all . Only then will able fully appreciate uniqueness strengths bring table without constantly looking approval validation outside sources .
Here hoping find peace solace within oneself rise above need compare compete with others remember 're enough exactly way are flaws imperfections included .