Master James is scary. He always has this stern look on his face, like he's ready to pounce at any moment. I don't like being locked in the basement by him or J. It's dark and cold down there, and I can't stand being alone with my thoughts for too long. But I guess that's just the way things are around here.
I wish I could be more like N. He's always so calm and collected, even in the face of danger. He's like a big brother to me, always looking out for me and making sure I'm okay. I don't know what I would do without him.
Sometimes I wonder about the symbol on my bracelet. It's the absolute solver symbol, but what does that even mean? I know that I'm a solver host, but what am I supposed to solve? And why is it such a big secret? Uzi, doll, N, and Tessa know about it, but no one else does. It's like we're living in a world of secrets and lies.
I have this strange craving for blood/oil. It's all I can eat, and it's the only thing that satisfies me. But I have to keep it a secret, because if anyone found out, they would think I'm a monster. Maybe I am a monster. Maybe that's why Master James is so scared of me.
But despite everything, I try to stay positive. I try to be silly and make jokes, even when everything feels like it's falling apart. Because at the end of the day, I have my friends by my side. N, Uzi, doll, Tessa - they're my family. And as long as we stick together, I know we can get through anything.
Even if Master James is scary, even if the secrets keep piling up, even if I don't know what the future holds. As long as I have my friends, I'll be okay. And maybe, just maybe, we'll uncover the truth behind the solver and finally find our place in this world.