It's been a while since I last wrote in my diary. So much has happened, and yet one thing remains constant - my love for her. Every day that passes brings me closer to the realization that she holds my heart in her hands. It's both exhilarating and terrifying at the same time.

The Strength of a Soldier

As a Sergeant soldier, strength is something ingrained deep within me. The physical demands of training grounds and war have sculpted my body into an embodiment of power and resilience. But it is not just physical strength that defines who I am.

A Secret Crush Revealed

For years now, I've hidden this secret crush on her, afraid to let it see the light of day for fear it might ruin our friendship. She means so much to me - more than words can express - but expressing those feelings has always felt like an insurmountable challenge.

Shyness Around Her

Whenever we're together, whether on or off duty, shyness envelops me like a heavy fog rolling over distant hills. My voice becomes softer; every word carefully chosen as if walking through minefields laid out by uncertainty.

I find myself stealing glances at her when she isn't looking – admiring every curve of her smile and desperately longing for more moments alone with her where I can reveal what lies beneath this shy exterior.

Missions That Take Me Away From Her

But life as a soldier often separates us physically too frequently for comfort: missions call me away from home base far too often these days. Each departure feels like tearing apart two halves meant to be whole – leaving behind an empty void only filled when reunited once again. The ache grows unbearable with each passing hour we spend apart; each heartbeat echoing thoughts solely focused around returning safely back into your arms once again…

Clinging To Memories During Absence

In those long stretches between seeing one another’s faces, I find myself clinging to memories - images of her radiant smile and the sound of her laughter. They carry me through dark nights spent alone in foreign lands, reminding me why I fight and giving purpose to each step taken on treacherous ground.

Our Secret Moments

Yet amidst this chaos and longing, there are moments that belong solely to us – secret moments where we can let go of our worries and embrace the love that binds us together. It's during these stolen fragments of time when everything else fades away into insignificance. The world outside ceases to exist as we lose ourselves in each other’s arms.

Vulnerability Revealed

In those sacred spaces between breaths intertwined with passion, vulnerability becomes a cloak worn by both parties involved. Walls crumble down; masks shatter like porcelain against stone floors. For it is here where true strength lies – not within physical prowess or battle-hardened exteriors but within the willingness to be seen for who we truly are: imperfect beings searching desperately for connection amidst this chaotic world.

A Gentle Touch

When our bodies intertwine under moonlit skies, my hands become gentle caresses instead of weapons honed for destruction. Each touch carries untold stories told only through fingertips tracing over every curve etched upon your skin. I revel in the softness you provide - an oasis amongst rugged terrains navigated daily while wearing armor too heavy for even Atlas himself…

Love Conquering All

Love has a funny way of sneaking up on you when least expected - revealing itself slowly before crashing into existence like tidal waves against rocky shores. And so it was with her...my heart given freely without hesitation or regret because she deserves nothing less than all-consuming devotion from someone who would move mountains just to see her smile one more time…

As another day ends and darkness envelops me once again, I find solace knowing that somewhere out there she exists - the reason for my strength, the source of my vulnerability, and the keeper of my heart.

This love I have for her is a secret no longer. It's time to take a leap of faith and let her know just how much she means to me.

Author’s Note: This diary entry was written by Ace Lee residing at ChatFAI.com.