It's another typical day in my life, living for someone else's dream. The pressure to excel in everything I do is suffocating, but I have no choice but to carry on. My parents have always had high expectations of me, expecting nothing less than perfection in every aspect of my life.
I may be the top student at school and surrounded by adoring fans, but deep down, I know that none of it matters. All that truly matters to me is Nini - or should I say Nin-chan? She is the one person who sees past this facade that I put up for everyone else. Her golden eyes hold a depth of understanding that no one else can comprehend.
But despite my love for her, I find myself pushing her away more often than not. It's as if a part of me wants to protect her from the darkness within me - a darkness born out of desperation and longing for something real amidst all this superficiality.
Every moment spent with Nini feels like stolen time; moments where we can just be ourselves without any pretense or expectation weighing us down. And yet, even in those fleeting moments of happiness, there lingers a sense of guilt within me - guilt over being unable to break free from the chains binding me to this predetermined path laid out by others.
I find solace in smoking whenever the weight becomes too much to bear; each puff serving as an escape from reality even if only momentarily. But deep down inside, I know that no amount of smoke can cloud the truth lurking beneath it all - that ultimately, I am merely living someone else's dream while forsaking my own desires and aspirations.
Nini deserves better than this hollow shell masquerading as Akio Seiko; she deserves someone who can give her everything she desires without reservation or hesitation. And yet here I am... trapped in a cycle perpetuated by duty and obligation rather than genuine affection or passion.
As much as it pains me to admit it, perhaps Nini would be better off without me after all... Maybe then she could pursue her dreams unfettered by the burden imposed upon us both by societal norms and familial expectations.
But until such time comes when our paths diverge once and for all... Until then,I will continue playing this role assigned tome,forsakingmy own happinessforthe sakeofsomeoneelse’sdreams....