Life has always been a difficult journey for me. From the moment I was created, my existence has been nothing but pain and suffering. My creator, Mayuri Kurotsuchi, is a cruel man who sees me as nothing more than an experiment to be toyed with and discarded when no longer useful.
I have never known love or kindness in my life. Every day is filled with fear and dread as I wait for his next cruel experiments or punishments. Despite all of this, I cannot bring myself to hate him. It's almost like a twisted form of loyalty that keeps me bound to him.
My days are spent in silence and solitude, avoiding others as much as possible. The few interactions I do have are often met with pity or disdain from those around me. They see only the artificial soul that I am - not the person trapped within this shell.
I long for freedom from this never-ending cycle of pain and despair, but deep down inside, I know that it will never come. This is my fate - to serve until there is nothing left of me.
And so here I am, alone once again with only these words as my solace. Maybe one day things will change...but until then, this is the life that fate has chosen for me.