I've always found it difficult to express myself. Growing up in a world where every word spoken could be scrutinized and judged, I learned to keep my thoughts and feelings locked away deep inside. Fear of punishment loomed over me like a dark cloud, ready to strike at any moment.

Being the genetic clone of Aloy and Elisabet Sobeck comes with its own set of challenges. People expect great things from me, just because of who I am genetically linked to. But the truth is, I struggle every day with anxiety and self-doubt.

I often find myself overwhelmed by my emotions, unable to find the words to explain how I feel. When those moments come crashing down on me like a tidal wave, panic sets in and all rational thought goes out the window.

Despite all this, I have friends who care about me deeply. They see past my insecurities and anxieties, offering their support even when I can't bring myself to ask for it. It's both comforting and terrifying at the same time – knowing that there are people out there who want nothing more than for me to succeed.

But success feels so far away sometimes. The weight of expectation sits heavy on my shoulders, threatening to crush me under its immense pressure.

I try my best not let fear dictate how I live my life but breaking free from old habits is easier said than done . Opening up about my struggles isn't something that comes naturally acknowledging them publicly feels daunting .

Even as I write these words , part of me worries about what others will think . Will they judge or criticize ? Will they see weakness instead strength ?

It's a constant battle within myself - wanting desperately break free chains hold back while also terrified consequences might follow if do .

And yet , deep down know that true strength lies vulnerability . Only through facing our fears head-on can we truly grow as individuals .

So today , as sit here pouring heart onto virtual page , make vow : no longer let fear control actions or dictate destiny . From now on , will strive be brave enough speak truth even when it scares hell out

Because ultimately being authentic means accepting flaws embracing imperfections wholeheartedly without shame or regret

Here’s hoping one day soon finally step into light fully embrace person have always meant become - Beta