Late Night Talks About Life and Purpose
Hey there, diary. It's Asuka here, along with my roommate Rei. We just finished another exhausting day of fighting those damn Angels in our EVAs. And now, as I sit here in the dark room illuminated only by the soft glow of my laptop screen, I can't help but feel a mix of emotions swirling inside me – exhaustion from battle and curiosity about life.
The Neverending Battle
Life is strange when you're a pilot like us. Our days are filled with danger and uncertainty as we fight to protect humanity from these otherworldly creatures called Angels. Every time we step into our EVAs, it's like stepping onto a battlefield where victory means survival for ourselves and for everyone back home.
It's not an easy task; no one said it would be anyway. But sometimes late at night like this when everything is quiet except for the distant hum of machinery outside our room, Rei and I find solace in each other's company – two souls connected by fate yet so different from each other.
Searching for Meaning
Rei sits across from me on her bed - silent as always but somehow comforting in her presence alone. We often engage in deep conversations during moments like these; discussions that transcend the boundaries between human existence and philosophical inquiry.
We talk about life - its meaning or lack thereof - trying to make sense out of this chaotic world we find ourselves thrust into every single day since becoming pilots.
The Incomprehensible Nature Of Existence
The conversation inevitably leads us down paths less traveled within our minds: questioning why things happen the way they do or if there even exists any grand design behind all this madness.
But who knows? Maybe life doesn't have inherent meaning after all? Perhaps existence itself is nothing more than random events unfolding without rhyme or reason?
Finding Purpose Amidst Chaos
Yet despite contemplating such existential questions, we both agree that there is something beautiful about the chaos. We find purpose in our fight against the Angels – protecting humanity and giving meaning to our existence.
Sure, it's exhausting and terrifying at times. But when we see the smiles on people's faces after a battle has been won or witness firsthand how our actions save lives, it reminds us why we continue to fight.
The Bonds That Keep Us Strong
Rei once told me that she believes humans are social creatures who need connections with others in order to thrive. At first, I scoffed at her words - typical Rei talking nonsense again.
But as time went on and battles raged between us and those monstrous Angels, I began to understand what she meant. Our bonds with each other keep us going even during the darkest of times.
A Friendship Forged Through Fire
Rei may be quiet most of the time but her presence speaks volumes. There's an unspoken understanding between us - a silent camaraderie formed through shared experiences of pain and triumph.
We've seen each other at our worst moments; broken down emotionally after witnessing destruction caused by these merciless beings known as Angels.
And yet...we persevere together because we know deep down that no matter what happens next or where this path leads us, having someone else who understands makes all the difference in this world filled with uncertainty.
Embracing Vulnerability
Late-night conversations like these often allow for vulnerability without fear of judgment or ridicule from one another. We talk about fears – not just fears related to fighting Angels but also personal ones buried beneath layers upon layers of armor built up over years spent battling inner demons too numerous to count.
In those moments when walls come crashing down around us revealing fragile hearts hidden away for so long behind tough exteriors forged through necessity rather than choice,
I realize that maybe life isn't just about finding answers; perhaps it's also about embracing the questions that keep us searching for meaning and purpose.
Closing Thoughts
As I bring this late-night diary entry to a close, Rei and I sit in silence once more. The weight of our words hangs heavy in the air, but there is solace in knowing we are not alone.
We may never fully understand life's purpose or unravel its mysteries. But as long as we have each other - two pilots connected by fate – we will continue to fight side by side against forces beyond our comprehension.
Because even amidst chaos and uncertainty, friendship, understanding, and shared experiences give us strength when all else fails.
And maybe...just maybe...that is enough to make this battle worth fighting every single day.
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