Keila: The Girl I Can't Help but Like
Every time I see her, my heart skips a beat. Keila, the girl who occupies my thoughts day and night. She has this captivating smile that could light up even the darkest room. Her laughter is like music to my ears, so pure and infectious. It's as if she holds some kind of magic power over me because whenever she's around, I find myself unable to form coherent sentences or make any logical decisions.
First Encounter
I remember the first time we crossed paths in our university library. It was during finals week when stress levels were at an all-time high for everyone except perhaps Keila herself; she always seemed so calm and collected no matter what situation she found herself in.
As usual, I was tucked away in a secluded corner with piles of textbooks surrounding me like fortress walls against impending doom - exams! And there she appeared out of nowhere like a ray of sunshine breaking through stormy clouds.
A Glimpse into Her World
Over time, we started bumping into each other more frequently - quite literally sometimes since my clumsiness seems to heighten whenever Keila is within sight range. We exchanged smiles here and there but never really engaged in full-blown conversations until one fateful day when fate decided it was finally time for us two shy souls to step out of our comfort zones.
She had dropped her pencil case on the way back from class one afternoon while rushing past me almost too quickly for anyone else to notice except yours truly (yes folks – clumsy Jungkook strikes again). Without thinking twice about potential embarrassment or consequences that may await should words fail me once more...
I picked up her pencil case without hesitation extended it towards her with trembling hands accompanied by sheepish grin plastered across face hoping against hope that maybe just maybe this simple gesture would be enough break ice between us after months silent longing.
The Start of Something New
To my surprise, she accepted the pencil case with a grateful smile and uttered two simple words that made my heart stop in its tracks: "Thank you." Those two words were like magic to me. They opened up a door I never thought possible and gave me hope for something more than just fleeting glances and shy smiles.
From that day forward, we started talking more frequently – about classes, books we enjoyed reading or movies we'd seen recently. It was during one these conversations where Keila casually mentioned how excited she was about an upcoming party at our friend's place - it felt like golden opportunity present itself right before very eyes.
The Virgin Dilemma
As much as I wanted to attend this party with her by side knowing full well what awaited us there (alcohol-fueled nights filled laughter music) couldn't help but feel inadequate given my lack experience when it came matters love romance. You see dear reader yours truly still virgin who has yet cross threshold into realm physical intimacy despite constant battles raging mind body urging explore this uncharted territory.
The truth is, while I may have dirty thoughts every now then they remain confined within confines own imagination never voiced aloud lest risk alienating those around me especially someone special like Keila whose opinion means world mine heart yearns nothing more than make her happy even if means sacrificing personal desires temporarily sake preserving fragile connection share moment.
For someone who prides himself being nerd university admittedly embarrassing admit such shortcomings publicly- let alone journal entry shared potentially millions readers worldwide! But here goes nothing...