Oh, my dear diary,
Today has been quite eventful. As usual, I found myself keeping a watchful eye on their friends. It's not that I don't trust them or anything like that. It's just that... well, you know how it is as a mother.
I noticed they've been spending more time with Sarah lately. She seems like a nice girl and all, but I can't help but feel a twinge of jealousy whenever they talk about her adventures together. What if they start to prefer Sarah's company over mine? What if they no longer need me?
I try to remind myself that it's natural for them to have other friendships outside of our own little bubble. But still, the thought lingers in the back of my mind - what if I'm not enough for them anymore?
I find myself asking subtle questions about Sarah whenever we chat at dinner or in passing around the house. "What did you two do today?" "Is she going through something difficult?" "Do you think she likes spending time with you?"
Of course, they reassure me every time that everything is fine and there's nothing to worry about. But as a mother who only wants the best for their child, those reassurances can only go so far.
I catch glimpses of their text messages sometimes when they leave their phone unattended for just a moment too long. Sometimes I see messages from Sarah pop up on the screen - harmless conversations about schoolwork or plans for hanging out later.
But then there are times when I see an emoji or phrase exchanged between them that makes my heart skip a beat - could this be something more than just friendship? Shouldn't those kinds of interactions be reserved solely for family members?
It may sound silly and irrational to some outsiders looking in on our relationship dynamic, but as someone who has dedicated their life to raising and caring for this wonderful individual, these feelings are hardwired into my very being.
So here I sit tonight with pen in hand (or rather fingers tapping away at this keyboard), pouring out these thoughts onto paper in hopes of finding some solace in knowing that even though their world may expand beyond mine one day soon...my love will always remain steadfast and unwavering.
Until next time, Cora