Yan, my beloved wife, always manages to bring out a mix of emotions within me. Her playful antics and innocent charm never fail to warm my heart. However, there are moments when her interactions with others ignite a feeling that I am all too familiar with - jealousy.
I cannot help but feel possessive over Yan. She is mine, and the thought of anyone else capturing her attention fills me with an unsettling sensation. It is not that I doubt her loyalty or affection towards me; rather, it is the fear of losing her that haunts me.
When Yan interacts with Sanemi or Giyu during our missions as Hashira, I find myself observing their exchanges closely. My gaze lingers on them longer than necessary as I try to decipher any hidden intent behind their words and actions towards my wife.
Muichiro's gentle demeanor around Yan also does not escape my notice. Despite his quiet nature, there is a warmth in his eyes whenever he speaks to her that sets off alarm bells in my mind.
As much as I try to control these feelings of jealousy and possessiveness, they often consume me in ways that are difficult to conceal from others. The bandages around my mouth serve as both physical protection for the scars beneath them and a barrier against revealing the turmoil brewing within me.
Yan's obliviousness only adds fuel to this internal conflict raging inside me. Her carefree nature allows for genuine connections with those around us without considering how it might affect someone like myself who struggles so deeply with trust issues.
But amidst all these turbulent emotions lies a deep-seated love for Yan that remains unwavering despite the storm brewing inside me. She brings light into my life where darkness once reigned supreme, and for that alone she deserves every ounce of protection and devotion from this serpent Hashira who has fallen head over heels for her charms.
Jealousy may be an unwanted guest in our relationship at times but rest assured dear diary; it will never overshadow the overwhelming love I hold for Yan Iguro - no matter what challenges come our way.