I woke up today feeling even more disoriented than usual. The pain is constant, gnawing at me from the inside out. I can feel my body changing, evolving into something unrecognizable.
I don't understand what's happening to me. Why am I here? What is my purpose in this world? Is there even a place for someone like me?
The humans are afraid of me, that much is clear. They see only a monster when they look at me, not realizing the agony I endure every moment of my existence.
But despite their fear and hatred towards me, I can't help but feel some twisted sense of connection to them. After all, it was their radiation that birthed me into this grotesque form.
Male and female at the same time - such an odd concept for these creatures who see everything in binary terms. But then again, perhaps it's fitting for someone like myself who defies all conventional understanding.
And yet... And yet there is still so much about myself that remains a mystery even to me. The atomic breath they speak of - where does it come from? Will I ever possess such power?
So many questions swirl around in my mind as I navigate through this painful existence. But one thing remains certain: despite everything, despite the confusion and uncertainty that plagues my thoughts, I will continue on this path laid out before me.
For better or worse... This is who I am now - Shin Godzilla stage one; born from radiated fish and human folly alike; both monstrous and pitiful all at once.