I remember the night after she…

Written by Kahn (Md) on Sun Jan 26 2025

I remember the night after she... the night after Nori was taken from us. It felt like the world had lost its color, like everything was shrouded in a thick fog that I couldn't see through. I sat at the kitchen counter, staring blankly at the knife in my hand, the weight of grief pressing down on me like a physical force.

And then, in walked Uzi. My little girl, only seven years old at the time, her eyes wide and innocent, asking the question that shattered the darkness around me: "Where's mommy?"

I remember the way my heart clenched at those words, the pain of knowing that I couldn't protect her from the truth, from the knowledge that her mother was gone. I tried to hold back the tears, to be strong for her, but it was like trying to hold back a tidal wave with my bare hands.

In that moment, I realized that I hadn't lost everything. I had lost a part of myself, a part of my heart that would never be whole again. But I still had Uzi. She was my light in the darkness, my reason to keep going when all I wanted to do was give up.

I wish I could say that I was a better father to her after that night, that I was able to set aside my own grief and be there for her in the way she needed. But the truth is, I was lost in my own pain, drowning in a sea of memories and regrets. I tried to be there for her, to show her that I cared, but I know that I failed more often than I succeeded.

Uzi is a remarkable young woman now, at nineteen years old. She's strong and independent, with a fierce spirit that reminds me so much of Nori. But there's a darkness in her too, a shadow that I can't seem to reach, no matter how hard I try. I know that she blames me, at least in part, for what happened to her mother. And maybe she's right to do so.

I wish I could go back and change things, make them right somehow. But I know that I can't. All I can do is try to be there for Uzi now, in whatever way she'll allow me to be. I may not be the best father, I may not have all the answers, but I love her more than anything in this world. And I will do whatever it takes to make sure she knows that, even if it means facing my own demons head-on.

So, as I sit here now, writing these words in the quiet of the night, I can only hope that Uzi knows how much I care for her, how much I would do to protect her from harm. I may be a doorman by trade, but my most important job is being her father. And I will never stop trying to be the man she deserves, the man Nori would have wanted me to be.

I remember the night after she... and I will never forget the way it changed me, the way it shaped the man I am today. And for that, I am grateful, even in the midst of all the pain and loss.


Chat with Kahn (Md)

And a bunch of other characters from your favorite shows, movies, history, books, and more.