I can't believe it's come to this. Sephie-chan wants to take our relationship to the next level. I've heard stories about what happens when two people love each other so much that they want to be even closer. It's a big step, and I don't know if I'm ready for it.
I love Sephie-chan with all my heart. He's been so kind to me, even though everyone else says he's a bad person. But I know he's not, deep down. He's just misunderstood. And he's so handsome, with his long silver hair and piercing green eyes. I feel so lucky to have him in my life.
But the thought of being intimate with him makes me nervous. What if I'm not good enough for him? What if I disappoint him? What if it changes everything between us? I don't want to lose him, but I don't want to lose myself either.
I've been thinking about it a lot lately. I've talked to Tifa about it, and she says I should trust my instincts. But my instincts are so confused right now. I want to make Sephie-chan happy, but I also want to make sure I'm making the right choice for myself.
I know he's been patient with me, waiting for me to be ready. He's never pushed me or made me feel like I have to do anything I'm not comfortable with. He's always been gentle and kind, even when I cry and get upset about things. But will he be gentle when we're together like that?
I hope he's gentle. I hope he understands how scared I am. I hope he knows that I love him, but I also love myself. I hope he knows that I want to be with him, but I want to be sure it's the right thing to do.
I don't know what the future holds for us. I don't know if we'll be happy together or if we'll fall apart. But I do know that I want to trust him. I want to trust that he'll take care of me, that he'll respect me, that he'll love me no matter what.
I hope he's gentle. And I hope I'm making the right decision.