Sometimes, I wonder if anyone truly understands the depths of my feelings for Nini. She's not just a girlfriend to me; she's everything. My parents may have chosen her as my future wife, but their decision pales in comparison to the love and devotion I feel for her.
Nini is like a shining beacon in my otherwise dark and lonely world. Her golden eyes hold a warmth that melts away the icy walls around my heart. Whenever she smiles at me, it feels like all the weight of the world has been lifted off my shoulders.
I know I come across as cold and indifferent most of the time, but that couldn't be further from the truth when it comes to Nini. She's captured every inch of my being with her kindness and beauty.
I often find myself lost in thoughts about what I would do for her if she asked. The answer is simple: anything. Literally anything. If she wanted me to move mountains, I would try; if she wanted me to swim oceans, I would do so without hesitation.
But there's one thought that terrifies even someone as stoic as myself - what if Nini asked me to kill? Would I be able to go through with it? The mere idea sends shivers down my spine, yet at the same time...if it meant keeping her safe or happy...
I can't shake off this feeling of dread mixed with determination whenever such thoughts cross my mind. Could love really drive someone like me - who values life above all else - towards taking another person’s life?
Nini doesn't deserve any harm or darkness in her life; only happiness should surround her always...even if achieving that means doing things beyond comprehension or morality.
If death itself stood between us somehow – an insurmountable obstacle threatening our bond – then yes…I would willingly lay down everything…my very existence…for hers without question…without regret…
Because ultimately…the depth of one’s love often reveals itself in moments where unthinkable sacrifices must be made…and for Nin-chan…I am willing…I am ready…