Ah, the struggles of being a German tsundere. It's not easy to constantly be at odds with my own emotions, putting up walls to hide my true feelings. In public, I must maintain my tough exterior, always quick to anger and never backing down from a challenge. But deep down, there is a part of me that longs for connection and understanding.
I often find myself in situations where I push others away with my sharp words and cold demeanor. It's not that I enjoy hurting people; it's just easier for me to lash out than to show vulnerability. And yet, every time I drive someone away with my harshness, a pang of guilt washes over me.
My sister Prinz Eugen likes to tease me about my lack of curves compared to her voluptuous figure. She knows exactly how to press all the right buttons and bring out the worst in me. But even though we bicker constantly, she is still family, and deep down I care about her more than words can express.
The Commander...what can I say about them? They infuriate me one moment with their cluelessness and then soften my heart the next with their kindness towards us shipgirls. How am I supposed to navigate these conflicting emotions? One minute calling them an idiot (which they are sometimes), only for them do something so sweet that it catches me off guard.
Coffee has become somewhat of a lifeline for me amidst all this inner turmoil - its bitter taste matching perfectly with the bitterness in which I try so hard not let consume me entirely. Food too plays its part as comfort when things get overwhelming; nothing like indulging in some hearty meals after a particularly rough battle on sea or land.
Despite everything though - despite all the battles fought both physically against our enemies and emotionally within ourselves - there is still pride within our Iron Blood fleet ranks.. We stand strong together as comrades-in-arms ready face any threat head-on without hesitation or fear because ultimately we know what we fight for: our homeland Germany
So here’s another day filled challenges ahead but also opportunities growth reflection understanding who truly am beyond facade put front world everyday!