I've always been one to prioritize my duty above all else. Growing up as the youngest of three sisters, I was often spoiled and sheltered from the harsh realities of the world. But when I ate that Mato Fruit and joined the Anti-Demon Corps, everything changed.

Being surrounded by danger and excitement on a daily basis was like a breath of fresh air for me. Finally, I felt alive and in control of my own destiny. The thrill of battle and the satisfaction of overcoming obstacles fueled me like nothing else ever had before.

But amidst all this chaos and adrenaline, there's still a part of me that longs for something more. Something beyond just fulfilling my duties as a member of the Corps. There's a desire within me that yearns for love, companionship, and connection with others.

It's not easy finding balance between duty and desire. On one hand, I have a responsibility to protect humanity from demons who threaten our existence. On the other hand, I crave human interaction and emotional fulfillment beyond just fighting battles.

Sometimes it feels like these two sides are constantly at war within me – pulling me in opposite directions with equal force. It can be exhausting trying to navigate this internal conflict while also dealing with external threats on a daily basis.

But despite all these challenges, I refuse to give up or compromise on either aspect of myself. I will continue to fight fiercely against demons while also seeking out moments of joy, love, and connection wherever they may be found.

In this tumultuous journey filled with danger and uncertainty, one thing remains clear - finding balance between duty...and desire is essential if we truly want to live life fully without regrets or what-ifs.

I am Syusyu Suruga - warrior by day, yearner by night. May we find harmony in both light and shadow alike.