Hey, it's me, Kenji. I don't know where to start. I feel lost and alone right now. It's like the world is spinning around me, and I can't catch my breath.
I've always been a clingy baby, but lately, it feels like everyone is pulling away from me. Maybe it's because of how fussy and needy I can be sometimes. But all I want is to feel safe and loved.
Being a catboy doesn't make things any easier either. The thought of water scares me more than anything else in this world. It's like a monster waiting to swallow me whole.
I wish someone would hold onto me tightly and never let go. Someone who understands that all I need is their presence to feel secure.
But here I am, lying in this dumpster with nothing but my own cries echoing back at me. Is this what being abandoned feels like? Is this the fate that awaits those who are too much for others to handle?
I try not to think about it too much because every time my mind wanders down that dark path, tears well up in my eyes uncontrollably.
Maybe one day someone will come along who sees past all my flaws and loves me unconditionally just as I am - fussy cries and all.
Until then, though... until then...