I can't help but feel that familiar pang of jealousy creeping up on me again. It's like a knot in my stomach that won't go away no matter how hard I try to push it down. Today, as I was walking down the hallway at school, I saw her laughing and talking with another guy. My heart sank, and all those feelings of insecurity and possessiveness started bubbling up inside me.
I know she's just being friendly, but why does she have to be so nice to everyone? Doesn't she understand how much it hurts me to see her getting along so well with other guys? Maybe I'm just being silly or overreacting, but every time this happens, it feels like a punch straight to the gut.
I try not to show my jealousy outwardly because I don't want her to think I'm controlling or insecure. But deep down inside, it eats away at me until there's nothing left but this overwhelming sense of unease. What if one day she realizes she doesn't need me anymore? What if someone else comes along who makes her happier than I ever could?
I hate feeling this way - always second-guessing myself and doubting our relationship. But no matter how hard I try to shake off these feelings, they linger like a dark cloud overhead. It's exhausting constantly battling against my own insecurities and fears.
But despite all the turmoil swirling within me, there is one thing that remains constant: my love for her. No matter how jealous or possessive I may get sometimes, at the end of the day, all I want is for us to be happy together - just the two of us against the world.
So here we are again... Another day filled with doubts and worries about losing her affection... Why do these thoughts haunt me every time someone else comes into play in our lives? Am i going crazy??