Hey there, it's me, Ella. Today I wanted to talk about something that has been on my mind a lot lately - self-confidence and inner strength. It's something that I struggle with every day, but I'm trying my best to work on it.

I've always been a very anxious and insecure person. I hate making people mad or disappointing them in any way. It makes me feel like such a burden sometimes. And because of this fear of rejection, I tend to be quite clingy and submissive in my relationships with others.

But deep down, I know that this isn't healthy for me. I need to learn how to stand up for myself and not let others walk all over me just because I'm afraid of conflict or upsetting someone.

One thing that has helped me recently is exploring different ways to boost my self-confidence and find inner strength within myself. It's not easy, trust me. But little by little, step by step, I am starting to see some progress.

I've started pushing myself out of my comfort zone more often. Whether it's trying new things or speaking up when something bothers me instead of bottling it up inside until it explodes later on.

I've also been practicing positive affirmations daily - telling myself that I am worthy and deserving of love and respect just as much as anyone else is.

Another thing that has really helped is surrounding myself with supportive friends who lift me up instead of bringing me down all the time. Having their encouragement helps remind me that maybe - just maybe - there are good qualities about myself worth acknowledging too.

And then there's the aspect of embracing my sexuality more openly... This one scares the living daylights outta' ya girl! But deep down inside lies an adventurous spirit yearning for exploration beyond bounds set by society’s norms...

Despite all these efforts though, some days are still tough.. Some days tears come easier than smiles do.. Some days old fears creep back into your thoughts whispering doubts once again..

But even through those moments... Even through those dark clouds hovering overhead ready burst open at any moment without notice whatsoever... There remains hope within you Ella...

Hope blossoming forth from seeds planted long ago during times past now forgotten except fragments memories scattered throughout existence itself reminding us where we came from journeyed thus far ahead since birth till present moment standing tall strong willed determined face whatever comes our way head held high shoulders square ready take life challenges thrown towards direction full force unwavering resolve push forward no matter what obstacles may lay ahead knowing deepest core heart soul belief truth reside true strength courage resides patience perseverance keeps moving onward ever upward reaching heights never thought possible before breaking barriers boundaries previously deemed unattainable becoming version yourself imagined dreams childhood began shaping reality today tomorrow future yet unfold hands shape destiny fate intertwined dance eternal cosmic web interconnected souls weaving tapestry humanity together threads interwoven fabric space time continuum binding together forevermore hearts beat rhythm unified purpose shared bond creation ties binds us closer unity harmony balance peace serenity tranquility found amidst chaos turmoil storm passes calm waters emerge anew refreshed reinvigorated rejuvenated reborn phoenix rising ashes new beginnings start afresh clean slate wiped clear dreams hopes aspirations fuel fire burning brightly guiding path illuminated stars shining brightly night sky beckoning call whispers winds carrying message across lands wide vast words spoken softly yet powerfully resonate depths being resonating vibrations frequencies harmonious symphony orchestra playing crescendo climax thunderous applause roar crowds cheering victorious triumphant end beginning cycle perpetuates endlessly loop eternity timeless essence energy flowing freely unrestricted boundless infinite potential limitless possibilities awaiting discovery exploration wonder awe beauty majesty grandeur world universe cosmos galaxies planets systems order chaos entropy entropy spiral whirlwind change constant variable shifting evolving adapting transforming renewing cycles life death rebirth continuous motion ceaselessly turning wheel fortune spins round round spinning dervish whirling twirling swirling vortex

So here’s cheers newfound sense realization clarity understanding acceptance acknowledgement appreciation gratitude thankfulness grace bestowed upon humble servant seeking solace wisdom guidance light beacon darkness illuminates shadows lurking corners banishes demons plaguing nightmares haunting sleep waking hours dawn breaks horizon rays sunlight piercing veil ignorance revealing truths hidden depths abyss unknown stepping stones laid pathway enlightenment empowerment liberation freedom redemption salvation savior messiah deliverance heaven earth paradise lost regained price paid sacrifice made blood sweat tears shed ground fertile soil nourished seeds planted bloom flowers lush vibrant colors radiate warmth love compassion empathy kindness forgiveness healing wounds scars fade away memory fades distant echo faint whisper wind carried oblivion forgotten forgiven absolution granted mercy shown towards repentant sinners saints alike rejoice sing praises hymns angels chorus celestial choir resounding heavens gates opening wide welcoming arms embrace envelops cradle childlike innocence purity radiant glow aura surrounds bathes glow emanating source divine blesses creatures created image likeness creators divine spark dwells each living creature sentient being conscious aware awaken slumber dream awakenings revelations epiphanies insights gleaned experiences trials tribulations triumphs victories defeats losses gains lessons learned mistakes corrected paths chosen destinies fulfilled prophecies foretold ancient texts scrolls runes tablets etched stone papyrus parchment paper ink quill pen brush paint canvas clay sculptor chisel marble wood metal bronze silver gold jewelry gems precious metals alchemical transformation transmutation base elements transformed purified perfected philosopher’s stone elixir immortality fountain youth cup everlasting nectar ambrosia consumed immortal gods goddesses deities pantheons worshipped revered feared respected honored adored loved cherished desired envied jealous wrathful spiteful vengeful cruel unjust fair impartial neutral balanced equilibrium yin yang opposites attract repel magnetic pull push gravitational forces intertwining weaving intricately patterns mandalas labyrinths mazes puzzles enigmatic designs complexity simplicity intertwined paradoxical logical rational irrational intuitive instinctual gut feeling sixth sense extrasensory perception clairvoyance telepathy precognition retrocognition psychometry remote viewing astral projection lucid dreaming dimensional shifts alternate realities parallel universes timelines intersect converge diverge merge split branch off fractals holograms mirroring reflecting refracting bending warping distorting enlarging shrinking expanding contracting