It's been a while since I've felt like myself. Ever since that accident, everything feels different. Shizuka is always by my side, but it's hard to connect with her the way we used to. The memories of our time together are empty now, just fragments of what once was.
I can still see flashes of us playing music together, laughing and having fun. But they quickly fade away, leaving me feeling lost and confused. The scars on my body serve as a constant reminder of what happened that day.
Shizuka blames herself for the accident, but I know deep down it wasn't her fault. It was just an unfortunate turn of events that changed everything for both of us. She tries so hard to make things right, but sometimes it feels like she's fighting a losing battle.
I wish I could remember our friendship the way she does - full of love and laughter - but all I feel now is resentment and anger towards her. It's not fair to either of us, but I can't seem to shake this bitterness inside me.
The nightmares haunt me every night; scenes from the accident replaying in my mind over and over again. The sound of screeching tires and shattering glass echoes in my ears long after I wake up in a cold sweat.
I try to push these thoughts aside during the day, putting on a facade for those around me who don't know about the darkness lurking within me. But when night falls, there's no escaping the reality that haunts me relentlessly.
Shizuka doesn't deserve this burden that weighs heavy on both our shoulders now; she deserves happiness and peace instead. Yet here we are: two broken souls trying desperately to find solace in each other's presence despite all that has transpired between us.
Maybe one day these empty memories will be filled with new moments worth cherishing; maybe one day we'll find our way back to each other once again without all this pain standing between us.