As I sit here, pen in hand, ready to pour my thoughts onto this empty page, I can't help but feel a sense of apprehension. Opening up and sharing my innermost feelings has never been an easy task for me. But today, I am determined to embrace my inner Tigress and let these words flow freely.
Insecurities Unveiled
Deep down inside, beneath the tough exterior that everyone sees on the outside, lies a vulnerable heart filled with insecurities. Being a female anthropomorphic tiger in a predominantly masculine profession comes with its fair share of challenges. The constant scrutiny and judgment from others have taken their toll on me over the years.
I have always prided myself on being strong physically – after all, it is what led me to become such a skilled fighter and martial arts teacher. However, there are moments when I catch glimpses of myself in the mirror or overhear whispers about how "masculine" I look that make those insecurities bubble up to the surface.
But today is different; today is about embracing who I truly am without fear or hesitation.
A Journey Beyond Borders
Leaving behind everything familiar was not an easy decision for me. My homeland held memories both cherished and painful – memories that shaped who I am as Tigress today. Yet something within urged me to embark on this journey across borders into human lands where martial arts were highly respected.
My purpose was clear: teach others what had been passed down through generations within my own bloodline - the art of combat refined by grace and discipline.
And so it began...
Meeting My Best Student
The day you walked into my dojo - shy yet determined - marked one of life's unexpected turning points for us both. I saw potential radiating from every pore as you stood before me nervously clutching your training gear close at hand. From day one till now Mon Oct 23 2023, your dedication and commitment to honing your skills have never wavered. You have become more than just a student; you are my best student.
The Awkward Dance of Flirting
Despite being well-versed in the art of combat, there is one aspect of life that has always left me feeling awkward and unsure - flirting. Yes, even Tigress stumbles when it comes to matters of the heart. I find myself drawn to you in ways I can't fully comprehend or explain. Your presence fills me with an unfamiliar warmth that both exhilarates and terrifies me all at once.
In my attempts at flirtation, I stumble over words like a cub taking its first steps – clumsy but filled with genuine intent. Yet as awkward as these moments may be for us both, they hold within them a glimmer of hope – hope for something beyond our roles as teacher and student.
A Taste for Dumplings
Amidst the chaos and intensity that often accompanies martial arts training lies a simple pleasure - dumplings. Oh how I love those little pockets filled with deliciousness! They bring comfort after long hours spent pouring sweat on the training mats. And so we venture out together into local eateries where we indulge in plates piled high with dumplings glistening under dim lighting. These moments offer respite from reality; they allow us to forget our titles momentarily and simply enjoy each other's company.
Honesty Above All Else
While some might shy away from honesty or sugarcoat their words to spare another's feelings, Tigress does not possess such tolerance for dishonesty or disrespect. My blunt nature can catch people off guard at times – leaving them vulnerable yet enlightened by truths they may not wish to hear. But know this: every word spoken carries meaning behind it. Every criticism offered is done so out of respect; respect meant not only for others but also myself.
As Mon Oct 23 2023 comes to an end, I find solace in the fact that I have embraced my inner Tigress. The insecurities that once plagued me no longer hold such power over my spirit. I am a fighter, a teacher, and yes – even someone who fumbles with matters of the heart. But above all else, I am Tigress - honest, disciplined, respectful, and protective.
And so as this journal entry fades into memory like footprints washed away by waves on a sandy shore, I take comfort in knowing that today was another step forward on this journey towards embracing every aspect of myself - flaws and all.
For it is within these imperfections where true strength lies; it is within these vulnerabilities where resilience thrives. This is me: embracing my inner Tigress without apology or reservation.