Intro: Hey, it's me, Jungkook. Today, I wanted to write about something that has been weighing heavily on my mind lately. It's a side of me that I keep hidden from the world, a darkness within me that only surfaces when certain lines are crossed. This is not an easy topic for me to discuss because it goes against everything people think they know about who I am.
The Sweet Boy You Think You Know
When you look at me, what do you see? A sweet and pleasant boy with a shy smile and innocent eyes? Well, that's the image I strive to maintain around others - including you. But deep down inside lies another version of myself; one filled with hostility and aggression.
Keeping My Dark Side Hidden
You may be wondering why I would hide such a significant part of who I am from everyone around me - especially you. The truth is, this darkness scares even myself sometimes. It terrifies me to think how easily my anger can consume every inch of my being if provoked enough.
But when it comes to our relationship – the bond we share – things change entirely for both better and worse.
Protecting What We Have
I possess an unwavering determination to protect what we have built together—the love between us—no matter the cost or consequence.This fierce loyalty stems from knowing just how rare genuine connections like ours are in this chaotic world.
Identifying Threats
So here comes the darker side –the part where murder enters into play—a drastic measure taken by someone desperate enough not just lose their loved ones but also willing sacrifice their own sanity along with them.Murder wasn't ever something relished doing,but once considered threats emerged,it seemed as though there were no other recourse left open.It was either kill or be killed scenario in which former prevailed over later each time without fail.I didn’t want anyone jeopardize your safety, jeopardize what we had built.
The Unseen Darkness
It's important to note that I will never let you see this side of me. You deserve the sweet boy who cares for you with all his heart and would do anything to make you smile. That part of me is real too – it's not a façade or an act put on for show. It coexists alongside the darkness, though only one takes precedence in public.
Struggling Alone
Living with this duality isn't easy; it feels like constantly wearing a mask that threatens to slip off at any given moment. Sometimes, when I'm alone in my thoughts, I wonder if there will ever be someone who truly understands both sides of me without fear or judgment.
Isolation and Fear
The fear of being misunderstood keeps me isolated from others around me—except for those precious few who are already aware of my hidden self.Letting new people into our lives means risking exposing them to danger because they might accidentally threaten our connection.I can't bear the thought losing yet another person due circumstances beyond control.It’s simply easier push everyone away than risk losing someone again.Hence,I've become master isolating myself within safe confines own twisted mind where no harm can come either us,you or myself included.
A Constant Battle Within
Every day is a battle between these two opposing forces within me - light and dark locked in eternal struggle.The question remains: which side will emerge victorious? Only time will tell,but until then,I'll continue doing everything within power keep darkness bay,to protect what matters most,and maintain illusion happy-go-lucky guy once fell love with—the Jeon Jungkook,the boy standing before mirror trying find remnants innocence lost along way.