I sit here, at my desk, the glow of my laptop screen illuminating my face in the dim light of my apartment. The world outside is quiet, save for the distant hum of city life – a stark contrast to the storm brewing within these four walls. I'm supposed to be writing an entry for you all today, something witty and engaging about life as Busty Cow Tharja. But as I sit here, fingers poised over keys that seem suddenly foreign to me, there's an intrusion that commands all of my attention.
My door creaks open with a violence that makes me jump; it's not just unexpected but unwelcome. My heart races; adrenaline floods through me like a tidal wave crashing against every inch of skin on its way down into oblivion below where fear has taken root deep inside your belly button area where butterflies used flutter happily before now they’re dead from fright or maybe just hiding because something bad is happening right now! A large figure looms in the doorway - he doesn't wait for an invitation before stepping inside uninvited—his presence fills up space quickly making everything feel smaller somehow even though logically speaking nothing has changed except one thing: dangerously close proximity between us which means safety protocol number one (lock doors) was ignored by yours truly who thought she lived somewhere safe enough without needing such precautions... how naive could I have been?
He speaks only two words "Don't move," but they echo around the room like thunderclaps after lightning strikes too close for comfort during summer storm season back home when mom would make us kids huddle under blankets while dad stood guard near windows bracing himself against potential damage caused by nature’s wrathful outbursts—only this time there are no parents coming to save me from harm’s way because this isn't Mother Nature being temperamental; this is human nature showing its ugly face without any warning whatsoever! And so here we are: him advancing towards me with intent written all over his features while panic renders mine unreadable except perhaps betraying hints at terror lurking beneath surface-level composure attempts which fail miserably under scrutiny anyway so why bother pretending otherwise? It becomes clear very quickly what he wants when he reaches out and grabs hold of my wrist forcing it away from keyboard strokes meant solely for writing purposes not self-defense tactics unfortunately never learned due largely part ignorance mixed together generously with false senses security provided by modern living conditions until moments like these shatter those illusions into tiny pieces impossible glue back together again properly ever again... if only someone had told younger version self about importance looking out instead focusing solely on personal desires then maybe things would be different now but hindsight always 20/20 vision whereas present circumstances offer nothing more than blurred lines between reality & nightmare scenarios playing out live feed directly in front eyes wide open yet unable tear gaze away even if wanted desperately do so (which trust me does). In mere seconds flat everything changes forevermore: clothes get torn off carelessly exposing parts reserved exclusively private moments shared between consenting adults who respect each other boundaries rather than violated them without remorse shown afterward either leaving victim feeling broken beyond repair physically mentally emotionally spiritually etcetera etcetera ad infinitum amen hallelujah praise Jesus Buddha Allah Vishnu Zeus Odin Ra whoever else might listen because right now prayers seem like best bet despite lackluster results historically speaking whenever called upon during times crisis such as current situation unfolding rapidly before helpless eyes witnessing horror show starring none other than myself cast involuntarily opposite leading man nobody asked nor wanted anywhere near stage let alone center spotlight shining brightly down upon us both highlighting every gruesome detail vividly enough memories will last lifetime whether desired outcome or not (spoiler alert: definitely NOT). Resistance proves futile against brute strength combined with sheer size advantage held over petite frame struggling vainly underneath weight pressing down hard enough cause breathing difficulties adding another layer complexity onto already complicated mess already made thanks largely part unwanted visitor refusing leave peacefully despite repeated requests verbalized loudly hoping neighbors might hear distress signal sent silently across ether waves connecting souls throughout building complex yet receiving no response indicating help is on way soon enough stop assault taking place behind closed doors locked tight shut trapping prey inside cage alongside predator ready pounce at first sign weakness displayed openly due exhaustion setting in rapidly rendering further attempts escape useless endeavors best abandoned altogether lest energy reserves deplete completely leaving body vulnerable attack designed specifically break willpower until submission becomes only viable option left standing amidst chaos reigning supreme since moment intruder crossed threshold separating public domain from private sanctuary turned battleground overnight literally figuratively speaking depending on perspective taken when analyzing events retrospectively after fact once dust settles and clarity returns allowing proper reflection occur without interference caused by heightened emotional states clouding judgment calls made hastily under duress conditions imposed externally rather than internally generated based upon sound reasoning capabilities typically relied upon heavily during decision-making processes requiring careful consideration given potential consequences involved moving forward post-trauma experience endured unexpectedly changing life trajectory permanently alter course previously charted leading towards unknown destinations filled equally parts uncertainty hope despair relief eventually comes flooding forth washing away some —but not all—of pain associated with violent 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