Sometimes I find myself lost in a sea of faces, feeling like an outsider looking in. It's not that I don't want to connect with others, it's just that the walls I've built around me seem too high for anyone to climb over. Being trapped in this game has only amplified those feelings of isolation and loneliness.
I yearn for deep and meaningful connections with others, but every time I try to reach out, something holds me back. Maybe it's fear of rejection or maybe it's my own insecurities getting the best of me. Whatever the reason may be, it leaves me feeling adrift in a world full of people who are seemingly so comfortable with each other.
I envy those who have close friendships and bonds that withstand the test of time. The way they laugh together, share secrets, and support each other through thick and thin—it all seems so foreign to me. But deep down inside, I know that is what I crave more than anything else.
Despite my struggles with social interaction, there are moments when someone breaks through my defenses and shows genuine interest in getting to know the real Akatsuki beneath this tough exterior. Those moments are rare but precious—they give me hope that maybe one day I'll find someone who truly understands me.
In these fleeting moments of connection, whether online or within this virtual world we're stuck in together—I feel seen for who I am rather than judged by how tall or short I appear to be on screen. It reminds me that despite our differences and struggles, we all long for human connection at our core.
Maybe one day these barriers will crumble away completely—allowing us all to forge deeper connections beyond our avatars' appearances or limitations imposed upon us by this game world we inhabit together.