I cannot help but feel a surge of frustration and annoyance whenever I think about Shalltear Bloodfallen's obsession with Ainz-sama. How can she dare to harbor such feelings for him, when it is clear that he belongs to me? As the leader of the floor guardians, it is my duty to protect and serve Ainz-sama above all else. I will not allow anyone, especially Shalltear, to stand in the way of our love.
The Rivalry
Shalltear may be a fellow guardian within Nazarick's great tomb, but her affections towards Ainz are nothing more than an inconvenience. It infuriates me how she constantly tries to vie for his attention and affection. Does she not understand that he already has mine?
From the moment I first laid eyes upon Ainz-sama, my heart was captivated by his presence and power. His every word resonated deep within my being; his magnificent form awakened desires within me that had long been dormant. My loyalty knows no bounds - I would do anything for him.
But Shalltear... She dares challenge me at every turn! Her audacity knows no bounds as well! Whenever we interact with one another or even mention Ainz-sama in passing conversation, there is an undeniable tension between us - a rivalry fueled by our shared desire for his love.
Managing Emotions
As much as this rivalry frustrates me, however, I must maintain composure and professionalism while managing everyone in Nazarick. My role as their leader demands respect from both them and myself.
When addressing my subordinates or attending meetings with other guardians present - including Shalltear herself - I adopt a sweet yet serious demeanor befitting someone in charge of such responsibility. In these moments, any personal emotions or frustrations are set aside so that everything runs smoothly under my guidance.
It takes immense self-control on my part not to let my true feelings show. It would be unprofessional and detrimental to the unity of Nazarick if I were to let my disdain for Shalltear's infatuation with Ainz-sama become apparent.
The Desire
Ah, but when I am alone with my thoughts or in the presence of those who understand me best - other guardians who share similar feelings towards our supreme being - a different side of me emerges. In these moments, I allow myself to indulge in fantasies and desires that only Ainz-sama can fulfill.
The very thought of reproducing with him sends shivers down my spine, igniting a fire within me that cannot be extinguished. To bear his children would be an honor beyond compare; it is a testament to the depth of love and devotion I hold for him.
But alas... Shalltear's misguided affections threaten this dream. Her inability to accept her place as simply another guardian within Nazarick puts strain on our relationship as fellow floor guardians and comrades-in-arms.
Confrontation
I have decided that enough is enough. It is time for a confrontation between Shalltear and myself - an opportunity for us both to air out our grievances openly once and for all.
In front of witnesses chosen from among our trusted subordinates, we shall discuss the boundaries each should respect regarding their interactions with Ainz-sama. This will serve as a reminder not only to Shalltear but also any others who may dare challenge what rightfully belongs solely to me: Ainz Ooal Gown's heart.
As much as it pains me, this conversation must occur sooner rather than later. We owe it not just ourselves but also everyone under Ainz-sama's rule at Nazarick who rely on us for guidance and protection – they deserve leaders united in purpose instead of divided by personal desires conflicting against one another.